I have been biting my tongue but really feel there's something missing from your updates. I am glad you and your son are going for counseling. I hope it helps both of you. But there's been no mention of your behavior in these updates.
Sure, you've lost trust for your son, and it shouldn't be regained easily or quickly. That takes time. But you also abused your own medications as well as used your mother's medications. That seems to have been brushed aside with one conversation with your doctor. As a CPP who has had challenges obtaining pain relief (as many of us here have) because the actions of people who abuse prescript
ion drugs affect us all, I am angry that you appear to take your actions so lightly.
As I recall in the thread (which was locked for probably good reason) you asked us all for advice on what to do with your pain - whether you should go to the E.R., call your doctor, or tough it out - I believe those were even questions in your poll. But after you had called your doctor and he gave you advice and that didn't ease your pain you choose to use some old meds prescribed to you. When those didn't work you took some of your mother's medications. Then, and only then, did you end up in the E.R. and reported they nearly threw you out. And "red flagged" you. These are the type of actions that hurt all of us CPP's. But I feel your focus has been totally on your son's behavior, as least as far as what you've reported in your updates. I can't help having strong feelings about
IMHO - and I know I might be beaten up for saying this - there are other forums for you to utilize if you want support dealing with your son's behaviors, and aren't going to be addressing your chronic pain issues. I'm not trying to be disrespectful or start a war here. I would have let it drop but every time I see an update that ignores your behavior choices it stirs up my feelings. Your behavior choices, as well as your sons, are part of what make it so difficult for so many of us.
Please understand, this isn't meant as an attack on you as a person, but it is focused on your behavior.
Post Edited (PAlady) : 4/30/2009 2:12:14 PM (GMT-6)