Thank you too Danimal. I am not sure about amazing, but I have an amazing boy out of that heartache. I wish that I could post a picture. He is just a ray of sunshine to everyone. He has so much compassion for people, he's a caring, loving little guy.
I can't think of a day when he doesn't wake up with a smile....I'll tell you all a funny story. My son was the last one on the bus earlier this year. Soon after school started, he told me that we "needed to talk" in his most serious voice. " Mom, would it be okay if I kissed you inside of the house, instead of at the bus?" So, of course, I asked him why and he replied , " well, see it's like this, I'm growing up and all, and the boys on the bus make fun of me because I kiss you every morning and tell you that I love you." I do , you know that right? but it is not nice to have them teasing me about it, so I thought that I would just give you a kiss inside the house, and then the boys wouldn't tease me anymore." Now, I'm a big ole softy and inside my heart was just breaking into a million pieces but I told him that it would be okay if that's what he wanted to do.....so that morning, off he went on the bus, and I held the tears until he was on the bus ....anyway, he came home that afternoon and told me that we needed to have another talk......oh boy, you can imagine what was going through my mind then......what else is my little guy going to cut off next? No more trips with him at school.....no more holding my hand??? What was coming now....LOL
Anyway, he told me that he knew that he hurt my feelings that morning and that he had given it some thought and he told those boys on the way home that he does love his mom, and he doesn't care if they make fun of him because he was going to kiss me no matter what they thought......needless to say, I was happy....and my son learned something that we have always tried to teach him and that is that it really doesn't matter what others think of you, as long as you are doing the right thing and making the right choices..
To this day, my son gives me a hug and a kiss every day before he leaves, and he proudly shouts out as he gets on the bus, I love you Mom.....answered by my own, I love you too buddy, see you later......
PLIF/TLIF Fusion w/Instrumentation L4-5 Spondololysthesis L4-5.Laminectomies L4-5, foraminal stenosis L3-4, L4-5, L5-S1, herniations L3-4, L4-5, L5-S1, central canal stenosis L3-4, L4-5 and L5-S1
POST OP CES 3/30-06
Neurogenic Bladder and Bowel, bilateral numbness legs and feet
Revision for failed Back surgery, pseudoarthrosis L4-5, hemilaminectomies L3-4, L4-5, L5-S1, bmp added to revision fusion, replaced two bent screws that were reversing out of vertebrae - August 2, 2007
On going back pain and neuropathic pain, failed back surgery, consult for scs, decided not to do that at this point.
Adhesive Arachnoiditis also......just what I didn't need..9/08- adding bilateral ulnar neuropathy with severe compression to the mix. They want me to see a surgeon for ulnar nerve surgery, but I'm not biting.
I've seen enough surgeons over the last few years.