You hit the nail on the head w/ that one Patti! He's a wacko but I wouldn't even give him the capital letter "W"!! Yes, it was back to work today, dragging myself in at 6:00am I could hardly get out of the car after tjhe hour ride in. My knees were hurting so bad, I was limping on both sides. My neck which I stated yesterday wasn't hurt was killing me and still is shooting lightning bolts down my spine> ouch>ouch>ouch! The lower back might just be the worst of all, siatica hitting all the way down to my feet. I think over do it was quite an understatement! I flat beat the crap out of myself, just didn't take any of the hints my body was giving. I hobbled out of my car just as the wacko boss was opening the back door, he just looked at me and shook his head, not a word! The first person who came in was Uncle Jerry, a 64 year old Itallian guy who just might be the nicest guy I've ever met> he brings me in all this great Itallian leftovers his wife cooks and she is the real deal! OMG can she cook! Anyway, a tear rolled down his fase as he told me what had happened while I was gone. Poor Jerry had a pacemaker put in last winter and still has to get a transfusion every two weeks because he has such a low blood count, he's bleeding some where internally but the docs can't figure ot where. This causes him to nod out at his desk alot. Usually one of the good guys finds him and knocks on the door to wake him so the boss doesn't catch him. It's usually me since I pee about 100 times a day from the plumbing work they did on me w/ my prostatectomy but lately the boss has been trying to catch him so he can scream at poor old Jerry. While I was gone, it came to a head and he told Jerry he was docking his pay 2 hrs a day for sleeping on the job and will be firing him as soon as he finds a replacement! What a compassionet wacko, ain't he? The only reason Jerry is still working is because like many others his age his retirement took a dive from our wonderful economy. His accountant took too many chances and Jerry got burned big time. I'm sorry, I know this isn't about pain but it's so dam painfull to watch this happen to such a wonderful guy. I can't stand it! Jerry's 40 year old son and 37 year old daughter and her husband, all out of work are living w/ Jerry along w/ 4 grand children also. He asked me what he's gonna do and I started crying w/ him. Like so many of you here, this ressession might as well be a depression because it is depressing everyone!
I had an apt. w/ my pain Doc this pm. I rushed out of work way to late to get there on time and was late again! When I saw the dr's assistant and told her what was going on with me, she said I'm going to get the Doc! She wanted to up my methadone again but it scares me w/ my sleep apnea so she upped my oxy #15's to 150 instaed of the perc 10/325's which are doing nothing for me. Again she asked if I had enough perc's to last a couple of days while I search for the Oxy's. I said maybe a weeks worth even though I'm a week late for my apt which I missed last week. I explained like I have so many times that I don't take all 5 a day unless I'm in bad pain and I gennerally take 3 or 4 which let me save up. She knows me well and said thats fine and good luck finding them and if I don't to call in and come switch the script for perc's again. I' in some kind of pain tonight and I don't think I can write much more. It troubles me as I haven't written to anyone elses posts yet!!!!! It makes me feel so selfish just writing about myself! GRRRRRR!!!!! Maybe later if I'm not dead like last nite. I fell asleep shortly after posting and woke at 9:00 when my wife called to say goodnight. Of course then I couldn't get back to sleep till way after midnight! The curse of the CP'ers!!! Always sleepin at the wrong time! 4:00am came so soon w/ the painfull alarm. Now I'm dead again and in much more pain than last night. At least it's Friday and my spouse is coming down for our second marrage councelling session Sat. morning. Another cryfest for me I'm afraid. Well kids, Pete's out of gas now> I'll try my best to post later but who knows??
Big hugs for all my CP'ers, my prayers are with you!
56 years old, Surgury, Radical Prostatectomy 8/20/03, PSA 6.6, Gleason 3 + 3 = 6, Adenocarcinoma extent (moderate) Stage & Margin:T2NOMX, No Metastases, Organ Confined, bone scan: Neg. 3 1/2 years of depression after surgery prior to Hypogonadizm DX, Testosterone Theropy> new 2/6/09> 400mg injections once a month. 56 and so glad to still be here to see my two sons grow up to be fine young men. They are both serving in the US Navy, one on the aircraft carrier USS John Stennis in port in Singapor and the other on a Gator Freighter USS Bataan stationed in Norfolk, Va. to be deployed to the Middle East in early May. I am one very proud (what they call me)> Big Pops!