I just went back and reread your post on skeye's thread, and reread it again and again! Could it be Fatherjohn that people feel a little helpless on trying to help someone?, I mean for me I find it extremely frustrating and difficult to help others here, because, of the format and nature of just being able to write what I truely feel., I know this might sound crazy but so many times I wish I could just be there and help the person, to do stuff for them, go with to the Doctor with them, hold their hand and console them, what ever, talk to them personally, I don't know just Help them!. I know that is not possible, but some people are in a bad way sometimes and I sometimes feel so inadequate at helping them, and I know it is just because of the nature of this format and the internet! Do you understand what I am saying, maybe what you need from people or what you perceive that people are giving can't be the same, because of the two dimensional affect of the internet forums? Just like now I am have a very difficult time trying to express what I really think and feel. I do think people, (at least most really do care about
you and me and most everyone) but I think sometimes the deep caring and compassion gets lost in the translation by putting their feelings down in a post. I at least like to think that it is, the way, I hope so anyway! You know I, have seen many of your post, you are a very brght, intelligent, man, and I also perceive that you are very sensitive, and very alert
to other peoples feelings, and it shows in your writings! But you also hurt, sometime very deeply! But often you some times seem hesitant posting about
your pain! Maybe it is a "man" thing, I am often that way too!, Often when I am hurting really bad, I start posting but not about
my self but instead trying to help others as much as I can, I don't know maybe reading about
others and their pain an problems, I feel it some how dimmishes what I feel about
my own! I don't know what it is, but like you, I to don't want to post about
my own pain because I don't want to appear to be whining! But there are many people here that see right through that, PALady you know who I mean,
anice is also one of them, along with edt, and host of others. They are all here, and they all care very much! I also will write and then delete, and write again and delete again and then give up writing! But now I don't do that as much, because, we are family, and rightly or wrongly I trust them, at least most of them and I do hope I am rightly!
I feel like am rambling a bit now, but I do hope you understand what I am trying to say!!
Anyway I hope you don't give-up on us!
I'm Retired USAF, went back to school and became an RN, and now am on full disalbility!--Degenerative Disc (affecting mostly the thorasic disc but all levels involved), C6/7 laminectomy/diskectomy& fusion, Osteoarthritis, Ulcerative colitis, Chronic Pain, Fibromyalgia, Complex Sleep Apnea, and host of other things to spice up my life!(NOT!) Medications: Oxycontin, Percocet, Baclofen, Sulfasalazine, Metoprolol, Folic Acid, Supplemental O2 at 3lpm with VPAP Adapt SV
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