Chutzie has given you some simply outstanding advice, I really do think you should consider it especially some counseling, you have allot going on, and as much as I myself and the rest of us want to help you, there is really not allot we can do except give you advice and support through our post, but we are not there with you and you really need person to person counseling to help you through this. Heck I go to counseling, I went to try and save our marriage and I continue to go to make it through this divorce! I go every two weeks, and it helps. Admittly most everything my counselor says, I have already heard from my friends and family here, but it still helps! Maybe it could help you to? You probably have quiite some time yet before you can go back to work don't you? I know you sure don't want to go back before you are healed up well!
anice your in my thoughts and prayers
I'm Retired USAF, went back to school and became an RN, and now am on full disalbility!--Degenerative Disc (affecting mostly the thorasic disc but all levels involved), C6/7 laminectomy/diskectomy& fusion, Osteoarthritis, Ulcerative colitis, Chronic Pain, Fibromyalgia, Complex Sleep Apnea, and host of other things to spice up my life!(NOT!) Medications: Oxycontin, Percocet, Baclofen, Sulfasalazine, Metoprolol, Folic Acid, Supplemental O2 at 3lpm with VPAP Adapt SV