I'm sorry I did not see your post until today, I have not been doing too well lately, so it has been kind of hit and miss for me, but I was going back to look at posts from the last several days, and in reading yours, I just wanted to let you know that our past history's are very similar, and if I nothing else, I hope that you will know that you are not alone.
I was in a passenger in a car driven by a fellow teacher (who was driving too fast), and a guy ran a stop sign and hit the driver's side rear, which sent us sideways and we were hit again by on-coming traffic right in my door by a car going 45 mph. Since that day (Oct. 25, 1995), I have had 23 back surgeries and despite having the herniated discs removed and rods, screws, and cages, as well as extensive fusion and a spinal cord stimulator and intrathecal pain pump, I am still in terrible pain from extensive nerve damage, degeneration, arthritis, scoliosis, spondylolesthesis, and a host of other problems.
I tried to continue working for 4 1/2 years after the accident simply because I absolutely loved my job. I was a teacher in a correctional facility as well as a vo-tech school, and while recovering from one of my surgeries, my immediate supervisor left and on my first day back, my new boss told me that she didn't think I had any business working in a jail with a bad back, because she felt that the inmates could more easily take advantage of me because of my limitations and although I was devestated, it was getting harder and harder for me to continue working and I had been thinking that I wasn't going to be able to keep it up much longer, so as much as my mind and heart wanted to keep going, I knew that my working days were over and I applied for SSD.
As you probably already know, CP and depression go hand in hand, and most of us on this forum have it to varying degrees. You have come to a wonderful place where you can talk about anything you are going through and you will receive compassionate support and good advice without ridicule or judgement.
If you have any questions or concerns about the SCS implant, feel free to ask away. There are other's that are in various stages of the process - some have just done the trial, some have just had the permanent implant, some of us have had one for years, and others have had it removed.
Welcome to HW,