Once again, thank you all for your heart felt replies. It means so much to me to know that you really do care. Your support has been awesome and I really appreciate being a part of such a wonderful family. Words just can't adequately express how much you all mean to me. I am at a loss for the correct words.
PALady, I had tears rolling down my face reading your reply. It touched me so much. And I did do what you said, I did read and reread the part about
me not being weak and wimpy. I really am trying. I probably should call my doctor, but I will wait until Tuesday. I've waited this long, what's a few more days? I want to get my thoughts down and organized first. And I am not there yet. You are such a big help to me and the others here. I am not sure exactly when I will return to work. I have atleast 2 weeks left. The 6 weeks time frame sounded like a long time. It actually is going by pretty fast. I don't want to go back to soon either. But we are struggling bad financially right now. And we need the money in a bad way. I will most likely be back to work when the 6 weeks are up, maybe one more. We'll see.
cshelp: No I haven't been put on a Solu-Medrol pack. I have taken the medrol dose packs in the past. I may mention it to my doctor at my next visit. Before when my back would flare up, I would always get the medrol or a celestone shot and it always worked. In August, when I got the celestone shot, I fell that night in the bathroom. So the shot never got the chance to work. I don't know if that was when the discs hereniated or what. But it's been downhill since then. I haven't thought about
trying it again. Thanks for mentioning it, I'll sure ask about
it and see if it's an option.
Modelmaker: Thanks for your encouragement too. I know the the fusion is more complex than the laminectomy. I hope I don't need to go that route in the future. But this hasn't been easy for me at all. I don't know if I will ever be able to look back and say it wasn't that bad! But then again, I don't know what my future may hold. I may be suprised. I am ready to turn the corner and know things are improving. I sure hope that happens.
Hollycat: I doubt the ortho. will give me anything stronger for the pain. I would have to go back to my PM for a different med, I think. And if I find that the surgery didn't take, I will most definitly go back to him. He was helpful and willing to try different meds if what I was on needed to be changed. The lortab is actually working okay except for the left hip and buttock. And if this is indeed nerve pain again, nothing would help... I'll just have to wait and see a little longer before I know exactly what is going on. Thank you for your reply.
Pete: You did make me laugh. Thanks I need to laugh. And yes you are a silly man. I am afraid I will be in the nut house, if I can't pull myself together!! Yes, these meltdowns are no fun at all. I know you understand this. I know we all know how they are. Laughter is good medicine. I am glad that it is working for you. And I am glad you are whistling and singing and laughing. I guess it's all part of being a clown!! But it's working. And you are great at making people laugh. I felt no where near laughing, but it did make me laugh.Thanks dear buddy!!
Golitho, Thank you for your post. It was encouraging. And no, I don't want to throw anything at you!! You are right about what all you said. I will try to remember it and do it.You are right.And it was helpful to me.
Sam: Yes, I did have and xray after the surgery. I had them when I went to have the staples out at my last appt. My aunt was with me. I'll have to ask her the specifics on what he said. My memory is mush right now. That is aggravating, because that is an important question. That is why I asked her to go with me. I'll have to get back to you on that one. And about the PT... I haven't started that yet. I go for my next appt. on Tues. I'll find out more about it then. If he suggests it, I will go for certain. I will do whatever I need to do to get better. I am walking and I'm not intentionally trying to "baby" myself. I don't want to do the wrong things to cause any damage.
Okay, I guess that is enough for now. It is 5:15am. I am going to read for awhile before waking everyone up to start their day. I went to my room when my husband and the kids got home last night. I just didn't want to be around anyone. I read and then went to sleep. I woke up about midnight and I've been up every since then. I'll probably go back to bed for a while when they leave at 7. I just need this quiet time right now. I do love to read. And it helps to get my mind off of all this for a while. I am trying to get at peace with everything and get a grip on my life as it is at the moment...
Thank you all again. You are great and wonderful friends-a big blessing to me.
Post Edited (anice) : 5/22/2009 4:20:58 AM (GMT-6)