Good morning my friend, its 6:21am here in Tx and I have been up the entire night, just could not sleep, story of my life. I do have my days & nights mixed up, but I do not go crawl in bed during the day either and sleep. I nod off in my chair here & there. If I could get this turned around somehow, I know I would feel so much better and last longer when doing stuff. I cannot do sleeping pills so that is out.
Before I forget, I sent you a note a few weeks back on the email listed here, did you get it, it did not come back to me? I think its a great idea to attempt getting the SCS done on your health insurance if possible. I know about the problems you ran into not long ago. Oh, how I cannot stand ins companies of any sort. This is why I never felt bad about my job when I worked, cause I had to deal with those SOBs 5 days a week on our clients. I was wondering if you could letter saying they would not pay for this that & chicken fat and get copies provided to the health ins, would they consider coverage since comp is denying stuff. I think its worth a phone to them and find out. I do know of instances where health ins kicked in & paid when comp denied and they always said if comp ever changed their mind they would go after the comp carrier for reimbursement. But, you do need denial letters for sure.
I have squirrels that come from 2 doors down and they give my dogs fits, its a hoot watching because the squirrels truly antagonize these guys. They will perch on the fence and look directly at them, swish that fluffy tail and run like hell down the fence with the dogs hot on their heels, I just crack up watching. It is definetly mating season for the dove, oh, we have so many around here. There are a bunch of them in nests next door in this huge pine tree and others that roost there. I have never heard so much wing flapping in my life lol. They are not discreet lol.
When I was growing up we had a city park that we went to alot and played on the playground. They had huge metal slides that you literally zipped down as a kid. Its all still the same too. But, it too was full of squirrels and some would come and eat out of your hand. The last time my brother & I were home we went to the park and we went down the tallest slide to see if it was still slick, oh yes indeed it was plenty slick, we were sure a sight to see.
Both of my parents are gone and I do know where you are coming from with the longing. When I get down sick I miss my mom so bad at times I can only sit and cry. She was a comfort like no other but then on the other hand in ways I am glad they are gone, my parents would both be out of their minds with worry if they saw the health problems I have been hit with. At least they were spared that. My dad was the rock as well they both just seemed to know what to do at times.
Hang in there, something good just has to come out of all the crap you have been thru. As for the brother, he will get his one day, he really will, I really do believe in the old saying what goes around comes around. I have seen it happen many times. Hugs, Susie