cshelp, I wish that I lived close to you. I would put my arms around you, hold you and give you a long hug. So, before I go on, I do want to offer you a hug:
I read your post and then reread it again. First of all, please do not say that you won't "bother" us anymore. This is a chronic pain forum. We all are in chronic pain. And we all are all here to encourage and support eachother. I understand how you can feel that way. I feel that way myself many times. I think this forum is such a wonderful place to be. I have personally been blessed many times over by all of you. It feels like family to me. I hope that you feel the same way. I think it is wonderful to be able to share how you feel without being judged or shamed or misunderstood. Please let us be here for you. Please let us help you through this extremely hard time in your life.
I do not understand about
your Dr. visit. Why would he not give you anything for pain because of a pysch. questionnaire? I agree with you. Drs. are supposed to help us live our lives as best as we can and as comfortable as we can be. No it is not your fault that you had a car accident. And no, it is not your fault that you had a lesion on your brain that made you lose your memory. No one would have wanted those things to happen to them. But those things did happen. And you are in pain. That is the reality of the situation. Now, you just have to try to find a doctor who will help you to live a better quality of life than what you have. I know that is easier said than done. But there has to be one out there. You should not have to live your life like this!!! Is there any chance of going back to that doctor and trying to explain the situation to him and see if he will be willing to help you? Maybe he didn't slow down enough to sit and listen to the actual reality of what you are saying. You mentioned going to another PM next week. Hopefully he will be able to help you.
Are you in the medical field? Are you a nurse? I was just wondering b/c it said that you are taking care of people every day. Is there any way you can cut down on your hours at all, if even for a short time? Can you schedule a vacation so you can rest and take it easy for a change?
I wish I had something better to say than what I have said. I want to help you. I just wish I knew the "magical" words that would help. I do want you to try real hare to keep your head up. I know it is hard. But you have to keep going. Something has got to change. You have to find an inner strength to keep on trying and not give up until you get some adequate help. You should not be made to suffer like this. I know it is hard. But you have to keep on trying...
Please keep posting as much and as often as you feel like. I know it has helped me alot. And you are not complaining. We all really care about
you. I want you to understand and believe that!!! I wish we could give you one really big group hug.
One more thing, when we feel like we've gotten to the end of our rope, it is then when you just tie a knot in it and swing. Keep hanging on. You will make it. And again, let us help you!!
Post Edited (anice) : 5/30/2009 5:41:37 PM (GMT-6)