I'll keep it as short as possible. I suffer, amongst a lot of other things, from chronic diarrhea for more than 20 years now (average of 8 hours a day) and 15 years of chronic intestinal bleedings (Hemo as low as 5.1). I can no longer have blood transfusions as the blood is broken down immediately resulting in even more bleedings. No cause has been found. My body no longer tolerates vitamins or minerals, either orally, IV or IM. I'm literally living on water and (stale) bread. For the past 4 years I've been detoxing in a final effort to find out what was wrong through extrememly detailed research of a clean system. Nothing. Now, all that is left, is morphine and anti-epilecptic medication. It's the morphine I'm worried about
I had morphine before, but for limited periods. I was on opium derivatives for more than 20 years, but codeine and opium tincture didn't do the trick. Morphine reduces my diarrhea and my bleedings. This is the only chemical that has any significant effect, we tried all the rest. Now my doctors have to give me morphine for the rest of my days just to keep me alive. I can deal with pain, but what troubles me is that I'll turn into a zombie again like I did years ago before I copletely detoxed. The min. dosage required is 120 mg a day (MS Contin) but this is the absolute minimum. My doctors are already talking about a dose in the hundreds of mg a day, even up to and including 1,600 mg in the worst case scenario (more is certainly lethal).
I would like to know if anyone had or has any experience with prolonged morphine treatment, we're talking years here. The only positive issue here is that I don't take it as a pain killer so when I grow accustomed to the use I don't need to increase the dose and the side effects should diminish. ALthough I fear I might no longer be able to function properly with too high a dose. 120 mg is tolerable but I don't know what higher doses will do in the long run. If course I'll be addicted but there is no other option left. I just want to know what I'm facing here. My doctors haven't given such doses to anyone but termnal cancer patients. They got their figures from the Mayo Clinic and th US Government (I live in Belgium) but both were unable to provide more details about long-term use of high doses. This is pretty much experimental as my intestines are rather unique.
Any insight in what to expect is welcome as well as any help, if that is possible, on how to counter the effects of morphine addiction without additional medication. Dietary advice that might reduce morphine drawbacks and such, if this is technically possible of course. I know the chemistry but don't know much about dietary requirements (living on water and bread). The idea is that with the diarrhea more or less under control, vitamins and minerals could be absorbed through "food". A new concept to me!
All help is most welcome.
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