I also think that these hoops they keep tossing in your direction are just ridiculous. Yes, therapy might teach someone better coping mechanisms if they don't already have them and some out there don't, but I d on't believe you are one of those people. People tell me that I am a rock after what I've been through, but they haven't sat in my house with me, late at night, while I have tears streaming down my face, trying not to make noise to wake my kids up or my husband because I don't want them to worry anymore than they already do....thankfully, those nights like that were short lived, in my self pitying days, but I certainly had them. I wasn't clinically depressed, more like trying to learn how to adjust to my "new normal" after finding out that if my surgeon had just listened to me once, my whole loosing my ability to walk more and more each passing day could have been avoided. Or on the nights after I found out that I was going to have to self cath for the rest of my life.....and how humiliated I was at the mere thought that a two year old could control their bladder and bowels but I can't....those were some really bad nights....but it was, as I said, a huge, one after another rock thrown at me, trying to learn how to adjust to all of this...but adjust I did.
I think in your case, it is that they are continuing to throw those rocks in your direction, so that either you throw your hands up in the air and surrender to not pursuing the scs or you close out this wc case...
I hope that you don't, in fact, I think that you will finally get the scs, but only after they find that you are one tough lady, one who knows what she needs and is going to get it. No matter what they do.
If you do learn something that you didn't know before, then I hope that it turns out to be helpful to you, to your family, not merely a waste of more time.
I know that you must be tired some days, after all that you have been put through, but hang in there.
You will win this battle. I know it.
PLIF/TLIF Fusion w/Instrumentation L4-5 Spondololysthesis L4-5.Laminectomies L4-5, foraminal stenosis L3-4, L4-5, L5-S1, herniations L3-4, L4-5, L5-S1, central canal stenosis L3-4, L4-5 and L5-S1
POST OP CES 3/30-06
Neurogenic Bladder and Bowel, bilateral numbness legs and feet
Revision for failed Back surgery, pseudoarthrosis L4-5, hemilaminectomies L3-4, L4-5, L5-S1, bmp added to revision fusion, replaced two bent screws that were reversing out of vertebrae - August 2, 2007
On going back pain and neuropathic pain, failed back surgery, consult for scs, decided not to do that at this point.
Adhesive Arachnoiditis also......just what I didn't need..9/08- adding bilateral ulnar neuropathy with severe compression to the mix. They want me to see a surgeon for ulnar nerve surgery, but I'm not biting.
I've seen enough surgeons over the last few years.