I am sorry you are having such a hard time of things
...morning came - and the sun was shining, but not upon me; I'm in a lot of pain.
You know what I love about mornings? The air. It is always so crisp and cool here in high altitude desert. I like things that are constant as so little in my life was constant for a very very long time.
while another was reaching for the methadone, ibuprofen and tylenol.
Don't hate, im so.. Noobie? New? To other people with chronic pain. I was curious before when you mentioned it? Now im really curious.. Why do you take both ibuprophen AND tylenol? what does one help with that the other doesnt and vice versa? If im being nieve again, tell me ill stopp buggin ya
nothing really completely touches the aching, burning, stabbing -
Oh dont I know it! Hear ya there. Im rather fortunate thou, my doctor seems to know just what to do about the degeneration and inflammation long before I ever say anything. You know I once made it to my procedure appointment having never gone above a 6? Crazy cool
So... Im gonna talk bout something, and dont laff! No giggling allowed! Serious stuff...When I realized that the damage to my spine had gotten to an irreversable point, and was told so, nicl,y repeatedly until it sunk in... I went to a pain psychologist. I stayed with her for a VERY long time and we re defined "me". From my reactions to pain, my responses to pain, to having pain as a part of my life, But!not what defines me. It would take me all day to list all the things we changed / worked on. I know that sounds easy... but it isnt and it took 4months to make my life changes , reactions to pain, permanant. Have you ever seen a pain psychologist? Miss Mary was awesome I miss her terribly. Felt like parting ways with a good friend.
|TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
|And sorry I could not travel both
|And be one traveler, long I stood|