It has been a while since i last posted.
Aside from my chronic pain (foot), i have been really down and out since the decision to do the hysterectomy. Jan. 21 i had a total hyster, and 16wks later had to have a second surgery for a entrapped nerve ad hernia repair. I am in more pain now with a large lump in the groin area. Doc says that it is another hernia. He says that i am to thin to do anymore surgery, that if i don't gain weight, i will just continue to pop out hernia's.
I have always been thin, (100lbs, 5'7) but weight fell to 89lbs since hyster, and now i am down to 86lbs. I look horrible, i FEEL horrible, and i can't have surgery till i gain. I have sought the help of a eating disorder specialist (not sure if that is what is going on w/ me or not, but i figure it can't hurt) who is a shrink, and i will be starting with a nutritionist also.
My husband and i are not getting along, as im sure he is sick of all this to, and sick of having to help out as much as he is since i can't lift to much, ect. Taking care of the kids takes everything i have to just make it through the day.
My hormones are a mess, even with HRT, and i think i am very depressed. I just don't feel ANY joy in life right now.
I can not believe that i have to have another surgery, yet it is even harder to believe that i can't fix the pain until i pack on the pounds! Im so sick and tired of being sick and tired....when do i get to go on with my life? I am beginning to think the hyster was the worst decision of my life.
Anyways, i know that you all have your stuff to deal with to, yet always find the time to help out the poor sap who is crying in her spilled milk (it's me!). I wish you all the very best and thank you for all your support as of lately!