I want to thank everyone for your wonderful responses. I can't express how much I appreciate it. Susie, you are truly a gem. At the present time, I'm not on an medication for depression. I have a bad reaction to them. Amitriptiline, Nortriptiline, Cymbalta are that I can remember. They either made me sick or feel anxious. I've been seeing a therapist since last year, and a few visits with a psychologist last summer (who I left because all she did was lecture me on narotics). This week, I'm going for a psychological evaluation with a psychiatrist. This has nothing to do with SS, but hopefully it will help my case. LOL at cheat sheet. The truth is that I forget a lot. I just hope that the hearing is is structured and the questions are straight forward. I'm not sure I could sit and tell my story. I could. but not sure how well I would do.
I cook a little, but extremly simple meals. I boil hot dogs and microwave beans, things like that. My husband does the laundry, and I fold it. I don't do any real cleaning. I could never grocery shop. I couldn't handle being in the store alone, overwhelmed is the way to describe it. I couldn't put my items on the converyer belt. A few months ago, my husband waited outside at CVS, so I could get four items. I took too long. He came in the store, and found me in an aisle, holding back tears because I lost my debit card. He went to the manager who had it. Luckily, someone had turned it in. My husband is 69, and not in the best of health himself. I use a shower chair, but I can take care of myself in that regard. I would never overplay my conditions. In fact, I feel like I'd have to underplay them because it would sound as if I was exaggerating if I told the truth about
my pain. I walk and it feels like I'm stepping on razor blades. Rib cage pain, upper body back pain, burning thighs, hip pain, buttocks pain, pain everywhere. I take a lot of narcotics and still, the pain is terrible. I'm also afraid to drive but still have my license.
I had an MRI in January/08. The MRI I had two months ago showed "Progressing spinal canal stenosis". Everything that had been mild or moderaate last year, jumped to severe. At the end, on Impressions, one thing jumped out to me.
"There are high-grade forminal stenoses at levells C5/C6 and C6/C7."
As for my emotional state. I do cry easily and often. I can refer to my family, but cannot discuss them for any length without waterworks. My therapist is always asking me if we can try to discuss it today. My parents were healthy, in their 60s. My mother as diagnoed with lung cancer. The following month, my father sufered a stroke, then got esophogal cancer. They died the following March and May. I did everything for those eight and ten months. I had them in a nursing home, side by side twin beds, morphine drips, feeding tubes toward the end. I had no help, and it was heartbreaking. I was there every single day, never once didn't go. I handled their estate, sold and packed up their home. No help, just my husband.
The following year, my 49-year old sister died suddenly. I was very close with my family. Now I have no family at all. That was my second and last sister. My other sister died in 1991. I have no children. My husband is all I have. I'll have to find a way to stop from crying if the judge goes there.
So, that's my story, and unfortunately, I'm stuck with it. Again, thank you to everyone for your input. Susie, you are very kind. I don't know why I can't find any information online about
Fibromyalgia, Arthritis, Chronic Pain, Hyperthyroidism, Cervical spine issues (DDD, spinal stenosis, bulging discs and more!), Depression, Anxiety.
Meds -- Oxycontin, Oxycodone, Lyrica, Motrin, Synthroid, Klonopin
Post Edited (DiLane) : 7/6/2009 3:28:35 AM (GMT-6)