Anice I think you had a very good dr appt with your dr and he is seeing your improvement as you go along in PT. My hat is off to him for doing the right thing and telling you that you are not physically capable of returning to work. He has made it clear to you that by returning to work too soon is leaving you wide open for further injury. You really do not want or need that, you don't even want to go there.
I do fully sympathize with you on the money situation. Yes, its terrible having a reduction of income, no one knows that better than me and everone else on this forum. Be glad that you have the short term disability policy, some money is better than no money.
All I can say is quit playing mind games with yourself over this healing business and get on with good healing that will get you back on your feet permanently. I don't understand why you thought he would release you when you knew he wouldnt and knew yourself you are not capable of returning at this time. We have tried so hard on this forum to warn you trthat you have to give your body time to heal properlly. This is the type of emotional situation that is interferring with your recovery and you are doing it to yourself. I do hope you mean it when you say you are done with this stuff because its really affecting you.
Concentrate on the good things the fact that you are progressing, use that good energy to keep improving. You will get there gal, a day at a time. Try to enjoy some of this time off with the kids & hubby. Its important to allow yourself some fun too.
Keep up the good work and throw all that old negetative crap down the garbage disposal lol. You can do this my friend. Hugs
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crohns disease dx 2002 & small bowel resection, still looking for remission whatever that is, chronic pain 22 yrs, added ulcerative colitis 6-05 to the mix, high blood pressure 28 yrs, aortic heart valve insuffiency, depression, osteoarthritis, osteoporosis lumbar spine, scoliosis lumbar spine, peripheral neuropathy hands & feet, COPD & on oxygen therapy, lupus & decreased circulation in both legs. Several other health issues just not enough room to list it all. Too many surgeries to list and too many medications to list. Currently on 16 different daily medications. Intrathecal pain pump implanted June 05.