Anice, you could look at options.
1. Quit work, quit PT and just stay home and spend much of that time in bed crying.
2. Quit PT, Tell the Dr. you are firing him and go back to work and probably, no more like for sure, make it all worse to where work will not be an option, then you could stay home in bed and cry.
3. Continue to go to PT, do as the Dr said and go back to work when he feels you are ready. You may be in bed crying now, but if you allow yourself to heal, then when you go back to work, you, your family, your patients, the other nurses, and many others will be blessed because you did things the right way.
You already know that two options are not really options. It is just frustrating knowing that you wanted to go back to work and it is not happening yet. It is a good thing that getting stressed out and frustrating doesn't add to the pain you are in. Opps, that already is taking place. Anice, I say these things and so do the others to let you know we care and can see that you put yourself thought these times of dissapointments by fixing your mind on an outcome before you talk to the Dr who you want to make decisions that are best for you. Imagine you are a nurse and a patient is supposed to follow the Dr order but refuse because they want to do things their way. As a nurse what advise are you going to give them. In all this I hope you are finding ways to enjoy your time at home and make the best of it. Finances are probably a big issue but you cannot allow that to hinder your healing.
I hope tomorrow or actually later today is a good day for you. You are a very important part of this forum and you help plenty of us out. When its time for you to return to work, you will no doubt do extremely well.
Post Edited (anice) : 7/18/2009 3:30:22 AM (GMT-6)
Good morning! *warm huggs* It is good to see you I do hope you slept in today. I think its awesome you went to the lake. Were all jelous, we just don't want to say it out loud! You have a laptop? You should take it next time *HW goes mobile*
I read all of your posts. I am kinda bummed too. I had really thought that this would be it. I am terribly sorry you arnt released to work yet. I get the impression your doctor is very cautious and careful with you. It does warm my heart that he cares so much! But at the same time I am frustraited he wont atleast allow a part time shift. Perhaps all is for the best. Your doctor seems to make a good point.... Doesnt mean we have to like it thou! Next time just be honest with him "Fine, no work for me... No christmas cookies for YOU this year!" Big fat X over the Docs name.
I will wake up and force all this negative thinking away and deal with the situation for what it is.
Why? Get grumpy! Get mad! Get it out! Better out , than in I say! And look, I know alot of people "Oh my gosh, don't be upset and dissapointed." I say its okay to be upset. Be down right crazy and scream! You have a copy of your old X Ray? Go out the back yard, bury it, and plant a tree on top. The point im trying to make, is do what it takes to get it out and release it. Find ways to release it. Even if it just mean going in to the garage and scream as loud as your lungs will let you!
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Anice...I can't say that I understand how you feel...about the pain, YES, but I haven't worked in ohhhhhh 8 years!! I don't have disability yet and if it weren't for my mother I and my son would be on the street.
But I do understand needing to work for financial reasons. I know that Dr.'s and Nurses are bad patients. Please try and do what the Doc says...Maybe, if you give him this next month he will release you on your next visit.
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Anice I think you had a very good dr appt with your dr and he is seeing your improvement as you go along in PT. My hat is off to him for doing the right thing and telling you that you are not physically capable of returning to work. He has made it clear to you that by returning to work too soon is leaving you wide open for further injury. You really do not want or need that, you don't even want to go there.
I do fully sympathize with you on the money situation. Yes, its terrible having a reduction of income, no one knows that better than me and everone else on this forum. Be glad that you have the short term disability policy, some money is better than no money.
All I can say is quit playing mind games with yourself over this healing business and get on with good healing that will get you back on your feet permanently. I don't understand why you thought he would release you when you knew he wouldnt and knew yourself you are not capable of returning at this time. We have tried so hard on this forum to warn you trthat you have to give your body time to heal properlly. This is the type of emotional situation that is interferring with your recovery and you are doing it to yourself. I do hope you mean it when you say you are done with this stuff because its really affecting you.
Concentrate on the good things the fact that you are progressing, use that good energy to keep improving. You will get there gal, a day at a time. Try to enjoy some of this time off with the kids & hubby. Its important to allow yourself some fun too.
Keep up the good work and throw all that old negetative crap down the garbage disposal lol. You can do this my friend. Hugs
PAlady is right. I bet your PM dr will either script you something else for depression or bump up the Elavil. I believe its Elavil you are on, can't remember. If its Elavil & he increases it get ready for a bad fog in the mornings. I would be more inclined to try something different since Elavil can be so sedating. Also it takes Elavil 30 days to get in your system to be effective and it has to be taken as directed.
I feel the pain you are having today is a direct result of the meltdown Friday night. I don't think you are fully aware of what the body goes thru in that type of stress. It may not have caused all of it, but you can bet it is a big contributing fator. I know every time I went trhu a big stressful event, my body paid for it a few days layer. Its a warning sign from your body.
You say you are still not walking correctly and your gait is off . Thats going to affect you as well. PT can help work on that. Plug in youe Tens andtry to relax.