Anice, I do understand honey where you are at. Oh my the Zoloft, wow 200mg was alot too. I maxed out at 300mg a day on it. But let me tell ya gal, there are many more newer meds available than when Zoloft was around. There is no fog, no fuzziness its great.
I hate that feeling. I so understand not wanting another pill to add to the mix, along with the cost of another one, but I can assure you this along with my BP meds(2) I will never do without ever. I was on Effexxor for a long time-not one of my favorites, if I was late taking the next one or missed just one pill oh it was awful. My son did the same way on Effexxor. He got put on something else and like me if I do miss one its ok, no weirded out feeling. Efexxor gave me and him the weired out feeling if we missed one.
PaLady and a few others here have openly admtted the crying jags we have and we cannot help it. Its the depression that causes it. We are grown people and we do not like admitting to anyone that this happened to us but its a fact of life for us and one we should never ignore. Its a definite signal that something is seriously amiss and needs attention.
When I was your age I was exactly like you. I went thru head strong and pretty much could handle anything thrown my way. I had this self preservation mechanism lol, I can now admit it was not always one of my finer qualities in many instances and came back and bit me in the butt many times because I thought I could handle and knew better. If I had been a little more realistic I could have saved myself alot of grief in many instances. I use to think I was bullet proof lol. I am not kidding you either when I say this cause I always handled things. I was the youngest of five kids, but when things went wrong with all the other siblings who did they turn to me. When they got sick I took care of them, if their kids got sick who took care of their kids. I just always thought I could handle it all.
Yes, your children do know much more than you think. Its just amazing what these little ones pick up on. Never under estimate a child no matter at what age. Remember you wrote and said the little girl seemed to be getting on your nerves more than usual and you did not like feeling that way. Its the depression making this happen, not you. She knows things are amiss at her home, she feels it, she senses it just as your son. As a rule the smaller ones will even at time act out a little more than usual when this type of things is going on. We all know you are a terrific mom and those kids are your life. No one here would ever say anything different.
A good antidepressant can smooth out the rough edges, stop the crying jags, help keep the BP lower (as long as your BP meds are working for you), give you a better outlook & attitude, help with loss of concentration, feel better physically and mentally. Oh gal, the list can go on forever you know. Needing some help in this dept is not a sign of weakness. I dare anyone tell any of us on this forum that we are weak people. Only the strong can survive what we live with daily.
We all want you happy and healthy. We are waiting to hear about your first week back at work. Its a good shot in the arm for us to get to hear a good success story, someone that is able to get back on with their life. I don't know if you realize how much it means to us to see or hear of someone able to do that. We have so much confidence in you in doing that because we feel you will. Let us know how your appt. goes.