Hope Y'all are having a peaseful low pain Friday evning! As I mentioned in my last post, I saw 4 of my doctors on Weds. to tell them about my aplying for SSD. My first at 10am was Wonderboy neuro surgeon who did the fusion on my neck. After filling out change of insurance paperwork I was taken into a examination room where I waited for about a half hour for his assistant to come in find out why I was there. I explained that my neck was hurting really bad although not the same as prior to my surgery and that I've been going downhill since I fell in that big hole at work. Then I told her that I had to quit my job because I could no longer do everything that was expected from me with all my pains, not just my neck. She then gave me all manor of flexability, ballance, and nerve sensation tests. I was cringing in pain w/ just about everything she did to me. After she left I waited another half hour before my doc finally came in and just looked at me, he could tell I had been crying or his assistant surely told him. I asked if she had talked to him and he nodded his head yes. Then I said to him, so what the hell do I do now doc? He said that he was sure I would get better just like he did back in May after the accident when he gave me a note for my boss stating that nothing was physically wrong w/ me from the fall and I could continue to work. I was crying by now and he just kept saying you have to give it time and I should get another x-ray. And exactly what good is that going to do doc except lighten my pocket by another $300. so you can tell me again there's nothing wrong??? He was vissably shaken as he knew I was very upset. I told him that I didn't blame him for what had happened but that he had to realize that it didn't get better like he said it would and that anytime I do anything it acts up and gets worse. Also that I knew it was my falt for overdoing it all the time but it's getting worse, not better. Then I told him about SSD and how I need the money because I just can't work in this condition. He then turned on the computor and pulled up my file. He said it would take a while and that he would be right back as he closed the door behind him. I waited and waited and finally opened the door. I could hear him in a room across the hall talking to another patient!!! GRRRR! Then he opened the door and asked the girl to walk down the hall while he watched her. He could see me sitting there snearing at him so when she got back into the room he told her he would be right back and came back in my room!! He said he would do anything he could to help me w/ SSD but there was nothing he could do for my pain, I jusrt have to be patient! I really don't think he will help me when they ask him if I'm permenantly disabled! Bad news there friends! I left mad, upset and in tears w/ my sunglasses on! As soon as I got on the highway my phone rang, it was his assistant telling me to come back for an x-ray. X-RAY??? What are you talking about?? The doc said he wants you to come back. I can't I'm late for my next Dr. apt I told her, besides we agreed that it wouldn't do any good and would just cost me more $$$ that I don't have! She didn't understand and told me that she would ask him again and call me back! A couple minutes later, she called and said he wants you to come back and get an x-ray in his office and I wouldn't have to pay for it because he knew I couldn't aford it!! Feeling guuilty doc??? I told her to tell him thanks but there was no way I could do it today w/ 3 more dr's tio see and made haste up the hwy!!
I bearly made it to my 1:00pm apt. with my PCP who looks just like the Pres! I explained the sittuation to him and he looked me in the eyes and said> "Pete, you have suffered enough, I'm behind you 100%" and the dam broke as a river of tears poured out as I hugged and thanked the man! He said he would fill out any paperwork and get my file ready for them. Yes!!! There not all bad!!!! Two down, two to go!
Next was my Urologist who gives me monthly testosterone shots and understands the condition my prostate cancer surgery left me both physically and emotionally! But the office was packed and there was no way I could wait to see him and still get to my PMP at 3pm!! So I talked them into getting a nurse to shoot me full of high test and I was on my way, I'll write my Uro a letter explaining things, I'm pretty sure he'll help me!
So I got to the pain management office about 10 minutes early, good I had to change insurance again anyway. Only problem was it took 45 minutes to athorize the insurance for some reason so I fell asleep in the waiting room. Then to my dismay, no doc today! I had to settle for a PA who explained that they get SSD requests all the time and that w/ my records of years of treatment, I surely would have no problems getting it! We'll see about that>??? So thats where I stand now untill today when I got a letter from SS stating that I have my initial hearing or meating w/ them on Aug 20th!!! I couldn't believe it happened so fast! The lawer's girl I spoke to tiold me 2 - 4 months!!! So now I have to get all the papperwork, reports, health history and such done in the next couple weeks! This is something the lawers people didn't tell me about!!! I asked them about health history and she said they only care about what's wrong w/ you now and what dr's your seeing!! I'm pissed about that as I could have taken care of a bunch of that this week had I known while I saw my doc's!!! GRRRRRRR, lawers!! What good are they??? I have a very long history of disliking those bottom feeders! They will hear from me on Monday!!!
Well kids, my fingers are tired, ny neck & back are killing me and I'm starving so I'll see Y'all monyana!!! Thanks for listening to my blabber!!
Hugz and kisses to the girls and manhugz to my Bro's!!
love you Gize!!
56 years old, Surgury, Radical Prostatectomy 8/20/03, PSA 6.6, Gleason 3 + 3 = 6, Adenocarcinoma extent (moderate) Stage & Margin:T2NOMX, No Metastases, Organ Confined, bone scan: Neg. 3 1/2 years of depression after surgery prior to Hypogonadizm DX, Testosterone Theropy> new 2/6/09> 400mg injections once a month. 56 and so glad to still be here to see my two sons grow up to be fine young men. They are both serving in the US Navy, Joseph is on the aircraft carrier USS John Stennis back in Bremerton, Wa. after 8 mo. deployment! and Pete Jr. is on The Asault Ship USS Bataan "The Jaws of the Fleet" somewhere in the Persian Gulf w/ 2,000 Marines aboard. I am one very proud (what they call me)> Big Pops!