~EXHAUSTED!!!

   Gosh. Im exhausted. And grumpy. 

Dani,

I know the toothless feeling. All too well. I've had full dentures since right before I turned 30. They did the extractions in 3 sessions. First all the molars in the back, both top & bottom. Then all the lower facials. Then finally all the top facials. During the time that I had no teeth at all is when it seemed that I ran into people that I hadn't seen since middle/jr high school, people that I worked with when I was 16 and hard my first job, and relatives that I didn't even know I had. It's inevitable that you'll run into everyone until you have teeth again. Just be glad that you don't have something like family photos scheduled. I had to learn how to grin and hold air in my mouth so it didn't look like my face was all sunk in from no teeth.

And then conveniently, once they're in place, you won't see a soul except a spouse or housemate - or maybe even a pet.

Hang in there, soon you too will be able to smile at them and chew only Freedent brand gum. lol. When someone compliments you on the new smile you can tell them that for only $1200 (or whatever amount it's costing you) they could have the same one too.

My heart and soul is aching for you. At times the wholeness of our situations come down like thunder for us to bear. Its good that you unloaded and I'm glad we are here for you.

Laurie

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Kidney Diseases and Disorders

Dear PA Lady,

       Your right, I am not. The lines were drawn last year and I was devistated for a long time. Still makes my heart ache. My friends were the only family I had.  I was devistated, angry and eventually went to therapy. I know that noone expected that a "pulled muscle" would turn into this .. this.. bone crumbling madness nearly 4years later. Noone is more shocked than my doctors and I. sheesh! I am glad I found healing well. I am glad I met other chronic pain patients. Its hard, real hard having your body do whatever it wants. Never relenting, never slowing. Never ceasing. Gosh I hope we can get this calicum stuff under control.

Dear Peircings! 

      Yes! this was so messed up... wouldnt believe it! This guy says "Do you feel better now that you see a therapist?" with an odd look. Like something was funny, that I didnt get. I turned and said "For 5 thousand dollars, Id better." And went back into my conversation.        

      Ugh! Remind me to never treat anyone like that! Lesson #2,000 learned   I have given up on anyone "understanding". You guys do, and a friend in california does. I am greatful. It was lonesome out there!

      I keep trying hard to remind myself that its just a moment in time.  And still I feel the urge to cry and hide.  Such a chicken       The teeth themselves were so costly I had to pay in three chunks. Total for teeth alone $4,000.0.. not including extra X rays, various office visits to both men.  The surgeon, for the surgical procedure,  is using all of what is allowed by insurance this year and another $ 2,000.0 out of pocket.  I know they are working hard and doing the best they can. I know there is alot they are taking in to consideration.

      The awfull part is that I grew up in extreme poverty so I literally had 20K worth of dental work done over 4yrs time, BEFORE any of this calicum absorption stuff started. Jeeze. Im gonna ask for before and after copies of XRays, I dont think anyone will mind. Maybe ill go plant a tree out back, and mourn the loss of custom shaded porcelin caps.  was 800.0 per tooth and I dont even have a thing to show for it.    Atleast all the wisdoms and 4 other molers were taken out back then. Little silver lining maybe?

     Gosh! Does my back have to sting so much on top of it all? I know I need medicine in there already!!! I dont need my back to remind me every passing MOMENT! Not gonna help the 28th get here any quicker. Jeeze. Ugh

except a spouse or housemate - or maybe even a pet.

I'll take 2 tickets for me and Mr.Bubbles! Atleast the cat knows when to keep quiet.  

...Wish we could put mean people in the time out corner.

     This turned out to be a whole heck of alot longer than I had planned.... Sorry. Thanks for your responses, makes it feel easier. And hey! One more day down

*huggs*

dani

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TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood

Well said Anice! You and Dani are both Angels sent here to our little family of GOOD PEOPLE! You are the karma I so often talk about coming to the good folks (all of us w/ CP!) who deserve something good to happen! You two, Skeye, PA, Chutzie, Me, Susie, Chart, Laurie, Scarred, Patti, Tina, Frances, Sandi, Splash, Merry, Harra, Skrape, Rhonda, FJ, WB and so many others that I'm forgetting>(sorry, my mind has turned to poop!!)are a blessing to me and the rest. My wife sometimes watches me writing on the comp. and asks, what are you doing? I reply "writing to my friends who need me" When I started writing here in the CP forum I was living alone and and working super long hours for a monster, so miserable and lonely! You folks helped me keep my sanity back then and I can never repay y'all for that!
Dani, so sorry for kidnapping your page! I just love all Y'all so much and I may sound corny and cheezy but I don't care! The newbee's know there is something special about this place and stick around but it's not untill they grow w/ us for a while and see all the caring, concideration, compassion and respect that we have for each other do they realize how lucky we are to have this place and our family that has grown together. I truly wish that someday, somehow we could all meet eachother. Could you imagine all the love? I'll bet it would do us all more good than any meds or procedures! A GIANT HWCP group hug!!! Yea, now we're talikn and I've talked too much so I'll give it a break now.
Dani, you are such a special person, hang tough. A year from now you'll be telling someone about what this ordeal was like and when they see your beutiful smiling face, they will never believe you!
Big Hugz from your Big Bro!
Pete
PS> I'm still buying a lotery ticket every week and when all that karma cash comes rolling in, it's gonna be time for one hell of a party and you all will be there, no exceptions!!!

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56 years old, Surgury, Radical Prostatectomy 8/20/03, PSA 6.6, Gleason 3 + 3 = 6, Adenocarcinoma extent (moderate) Stage & Margin:T2NOMX, No Metastases, Organ Confined, bone scan: Neg. 3 1/2 years of depression after surgery prior to Hypogonadizm DX, Testosterone Theropy> new 2/6/09> 400mg injections once a month. 56 and so glad to still be here to see my two sons grow up to be fine young men. They are both serving in the US Navy, Joseph is on the aircraft carrier USS John Stennis back in Bremerton, Wa. after 8 mo. deployment! and Pete Jr. is on The Asault Ship USS Bataan "The Jaws of the Fleet" somewhere in the Persian Gulf w/ 2,000 Marines aboard. I am one very proud (what they call me)> Big Pops! 

Post Edited (Pete trips again!) : 8/13/2009 6:42:37 AM (GMT-6)

Dani,
Oh, I just wish I could give you a hug, and lend you a shoulder to cry on. And I sure do understand the money end. I'm scared what may be in my future because I don't have thousands of dollars to put into my mouth, but I'm at the age when it's somewhat expected. I'm so sorry you have had to go through this twice in your life! The dentist's should be giving you some freebe by now - you know, like when you buy enough of something and your card gets punched full and you get your meal or your coffee or whatever, free!

Pete - I have to say your words about our family brought tears to my eyes!!!!

((((((((((((Dani)))))))))))))

PaLady