Hi everyone. I am 50 yrears old and in the past 8 years have had 16 surgeries. A work accident left me with 3 lumbar disk herniations, now fused, a torn bladder, now fixed and 2 rotator cuff tears, fixed.At the tail end of this I found I had stage 3 breast cancer and went through a multitude of surgeries for that, now recovered. (yay!!!) Since then I have had shoulder surgery twice, (same shoulder) for complete separation of rotator cuff, torn librum and biceps. I fear I have torn it again because it causes me great pain with too much usage. Now I know that a body breaks down with age, but jeeeze! Anyway, I have nerve damage in my hands and feet and they swell up every am and pm, in the am. I can work it out with activities. It seems that as long as I am busy busy busy, they are fine. Same thing with my back and the accompaning sciatica. I have to stay busy, to stop and sit through a movie causes a lot of pain in my back and hands and feet. But I have to really know how to pace myself and not over due anything because the payment for that is harsh. I am happy to say, that I do NOT rely on anything stronger than aleve and ice packs. I really swear by the ice!!! Needless to say, my house and yard are immaculate. Sadly though, I now find myself alone in my world because my pain keeps me from being able to enjoy life and make friends. I moved to Illinois when I had cancer because I thought I was dying and wanted to be near my daughter. But I can't rely on her for companionship, she has her own life. I have tried making friends here, but my limitations invariably get in the way and they fizzle out. I live alone with my dogs and have my grandson over one night a week. He is 4, and one night is about my limit with such a busy child. Just the time it took me to type this out has my back hurting from sitting. I guess I am kind of looking around, I know I am not the only one dealing with so much. I wondered how others manage to meet and make and maintain friends in a life with chronic pain. I do not mind the empathizing with someone else in then same shoes, but I must keep an upbeat attitude to survive and will not permit myself to drop into a pit of self pity, but it does get lonely and I am tired of laughing at my own jokes.
Well, I must say, that felt good, to unload. Thanks for reading this. Lisa