It's hard for me to write through the tears right now. I can't thank each of you enough. I don't know what I would do without all of you. I'd never make it through this, but somehow I will.
Susie, you know I truly beieve they are trying to find a way to deny me. I've been with BC/BS forever, so they have all my medical history, and have to know of my latest precancerous condition. And that will cost them money with the surveillance endoscopies, because this policy does cover those (I checked) as well as the accompanying biopsies. That's what I need more than anything. There's no Rx coverage with them so they're not going to pay for script
s anyway. Thing is, $$ is not the issue right at the moment with my meds. I JUST got everything settled with that - or so I thought, so that I was receiving just about
every med at no cost from the pharmaceutical company, but I had to pay for the percocet - but only $22 at WalMart. That was doable. But I need a doctor to script
You know - you do all know what I'm about
to say - this is more than anything about
the lack of pain management care from doctors. My PCP refuses to script
pain meds. And she won't even give me a discount for an office visit! The person who SHOULD be willing to take this over - the neurologist I've seen for 25 years (or at least someone in their practice for that long) - took over the neurontin because that had to be mailed to a physician's office, but made sure to tell me he would NOT take over the percocet or any chronic pain management. Pathetic. Pathetic. Pathetic.
Sorry, gang, I'm between tears and a rant.
I have one option. There's a doctor my cousin knows in Pittsburgh who was going to help me out. And I was planning to switch over to him earlier this summer, and then he had an accident and was injured and out of the office. I will call and see if he's back practicing yet, and how much. He's a solo practitioner so it's only him.
But I'm trying to tell myself that I won't die from lack of the percocet. Sometimes I think we all get so scared that makes it worse. And I'm scared, too, but I'm getting every other medication, and if I have to take extra strength tylenol and be in pain I guess that's what I'll have to do. I am more concerned about
this insurance issue and endoscopies. That's life threatening. And my cousin will pay the premiums - which are only $135/month, a lot cheaper than the COBRA was, until I get to Medicare or am eligible for Medicaid. But Medicaid is making it impossible, too, but that's another story. All these programs to help low income people but there's so many hoops - and I believe it's deliberate. So many people would have quit by now and that's exactly what they want.
I had another message from BC/BS this morning - saying the same thing, so I have to call them back yet again. There is literally nothing more for me to send them! I have sent every form unemployment - which has now run out anyway - has sent me. They have my tax returns. And god knows what else. While I'm reluctant to tick them off, if they still give me more grief today I think I'm going to try calling the state insurance commissioner and/or some state representatives offices. This is just WRONG.
Ok, thanks for letting me rant. And I'll try to respond to each one of you but I just need to spill things out as they come at the moment. I know you all understand and believe me when I say I love you for it!
that vampire blood....best idea yet. If only I knew a vampire or could become one.....ahhhhh, the things one could do!
Hugs, Hugs, Hugs,
Post Edited (PAlady) : 10/16/2009 11:07:14 AM (GMT-6)