I was addicted to painkillers, although I never took more than seven 10mg pills in any given day, it was everyday for at least seven years. I tried everything to get off of them and then I tried Suboxone after hearing how this "miracle" drug was available. I thought it was great at first, one pill a day and I felt "normal", with no ups and downs, no cravings, no more hunting for that high. Well, when I was faced with losing my job of ten years, I no longer had health insurance and needed to get away from the suboxone. I talked with my Dr. and he told me that since I was on such a low dose that I should not feel too many side effects........bullcrap. I literally felt like my skin was going to peel off and run away to get away from my body, I had a headache for four days, couldn't sleep, even drinking Nyquil like Koolaid. I actually had to track down a few pain pills to get me off the wonder drug. So I ask, what separates this from methadone? One addiction to another? I honestly believe that strong will and persistence, doing it yourself and living through the withdrawel is the only way to kick the habit. I have finally escaped the clutch of the opiate. I will probably struggle with it for the rest of my life, but isn't that what addicts do? I still crave the high, especially when I need to be motivated. But I remind myself of the forgotten side of the high.....the coast down, which really, really sucks. For all of you out there struggling, just keep moving and even though it feels like you may never emerge, you will, and it is all up to you. Get away from everything that reminds you of pills, friends and all. If they are really your friends, they will understand. Good luck and please do not take Suboxone unless you want to detox anyways.