Mike, WB, Dani and Chutz, thanks for the encouragement. As I was reading this tonight, I know many had stated that others who don't understand our struggle say things like "you seem do be doing ok" or "You don't look like you are in pain". Maybe that is because our courage and optimism show more than we realize.
WB you are right we just can't quit and give up even though that thought comes and probably stronger than we like to admit.
Dani it is probably a very good thing that we recognize that others around us need us because that can also fuel our determination. Even though my youngins are older, they still depend on me. My son who is in Iraq posted a message on his myspace that I am his hero. That is very meaningful especially knowing where he is at and what he is doing. He is talking about volunteering to go to Afganastan. He is one of my heros and I need to make sure that I am here when he needs me.
Chutz I am not sure about awesome but thanks for the kind words.
Mike, I am glad the words spoke to you.