I know that everyone says to not take it personally it is just the way the system works! But your human like the rest of us, and I know many many times I was told not to take it personally, but as hard I would try not to, I did take it personally, it was an insult on top of injury!!!. You hurt, you feel lousy, and you need the the disability, and you have tried to jump through all their rediculious hoops, and do everything they want, and then, they come back with their rejection! Can't they see what I am going through? Don't they care? I have worked all these years, and I paid into it, am I not due to get it? All these things went through my mind and much more! What more can I do? What more do they want? How can they expect me to work this way? Do they think I want to be this way? Do they think that I don't want to work? Don't they realize I would do anything to be able to work in my job? That I long to be able to be back in my chosen career and I miss it so much? Don't they see what all of this is doing to me? I know this is how I felt! Every rejection seemed to take its toll, it wears you down. You really do just want to give up and not hassle with it any more! But if you do that then what have you got? If you can't work then what will you do? I was fortunate that I had my military retirement, but that was not enough to live on, and help my kids that were both in College at the time! Luckily my disability insurance had hired a law firm to represent me, and help me through it! I don't know what I would have done without them! The lawyer just kept saying this was a normal process and it would all work out! And it did! But it took quite awhile, and for me I had allot working against me, allot of different types of formal training from the military, and they used that as an excuse, to deny me! But in the end it did all work out! But the process was a long and drawn out one, and it was not fun!
So Pete I think your reaction is completely normal! And yes you do take it personaly, and the rejection hurts! and it does bother you, but hang in there, and just keep your eye on the goal, and continue to play their games and jump through their hoops, don't let them wear you down! Or at least try not to! Eventually you will get it approved! When it is we will all be there to congratulate you! In the the mean time we are all here to give you our support and help boost you up when these rejections get you down!
Good Luck to You Pete and just Hang in there!