And I'm glad you're back! Don't worry about
the posting. I'm sure you were in need of help but we do need to keep this a family site and keep to the owners rules.
Have you considered or tried a new doctor? I know it can be a bit risky for those with chronic pain because we can be accused of doctor shopping...BUT, there is no way a decent physician would stop you cold turkey when you are taking an opioid medication. That's just not done..it can kill people doing it that way. There is a medication that will help you get through withdrawal without the side effects. It's called suboxone. You might ask your doc to prescribe it for you.
If I were you, thought, I'd be looking for some place that can give you some serious help. My first choice would be a university/teaching hospital. There are lots of them around the country and they are not afraid to treat pain. Many of them are conducting research on pain issues so they are always on the cutting edge of the newest medications and techniques available. In the Chronic Pain 101 'sticky' at the top of the page is a link to a large list of these facilities around the world. Here's the link so you don't have to hunt for it... en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_university_hospitals
I do hope you stick around and also find some relief. No one should have to go through what you are suffering.
"Knowledge is knowing that a tomato is a fruit, but Wisdom is knowing not to put it in a fruit salad."
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