Hello SnowBunny and Jag! I will take all into account. Right now I have just given up on everything, and am just waiting for the big day. The pain after the surgery is what worry's me the most, but the surgeon assured me not to worry about it. He said he would make sure I was comfortable and would provide care for a while afterward s too. My PCD said he would normally start me on Valium prior to the surgery, but since I on such a heavy dose of pain meds, he did not feel comfortable doing that. The meds that I'm on right now, just take the edge off, and are not providing me much comfort right now. I just got my refill of all of my meds yesterday, and I will get another a day before the surgery, so that gives me some comfort knowing that they will be there for me, when needed. Right now I'm having second thoughts on my PCD, as he has not acted like the same Dr, since he moved his practice. I think there are some political undertones affecting his decision making for the care of his patients. The surgeons office called my Dr yesterday to schedule an MRI, and he denied it, or at least the place they were sending me to to get it done. When I picked up my meds I asked them about it, and did not really get a good answer about it, but they said they would take care of it. That really means that I will have to check to make sure they got it done. Oh well, time will tell, but I will sure be glad to get this done, and will have to have it repeated for me neck as well. The elbow is still bothering me, and I get a burning sensation from time to time, which tell me there is a tear there. So that will be a surgery as well. I feel like I have been run through a shredder, or a little like Humpty Dumpty who cant be put together again :) I am so very glad that I have a good support group here, and with all of my home town friends and co workers. It is wonderful to have this type of support system. The members here at Healing Well are the ones that really touch my heart though, as we all understand what CP really is. Even if I turned out healthy from all of this, I will always support this group for the rest of my life. There are a lot of good, well meaning, members here...some of the best on the planet! We all have our own personal problems and different health issues, but we do share the common Chronic Pain problem. You will always hear me say this like a broken record, but I so appreciate this Web-site and the members. The moderators have been wonderful, and were the first to welcome me here, followed closely by veteran members too. Keep up the good work, by reaching out to new members, and following up on them...Thanking your Moderators from time to time, and sharing your experience with us here. Don't ever think that your efforts go unnoticed, you never know who you may be helping. We need a break from time to time, and we need to take it when needed....so do it! Age should make no difference either in the matter of sharing here...we have many a wise veteran members, and some pretty smart newbies too. Just a simple Hello is all that is needed in someones life. I still like the idea of a buddy system here, and I and a few others are doing just that. a good example is Tmjpain....she is taking treatments right now for her horrible head pain...Privey and myself are on contact with her every day, and she has asked that we keep the members updated for her. She simply is too sick to work the computer. Remember when Scarred for Life was in the Hospital?...she too wanted us to know how she was doing, so her husband of course kept us all updated....we would have never known that something was wrong had he not posted how she was doing here. If you can, and you have some extra time, buddy up with someone...of course that will let you...so that that person, or you have a backup when either one of you are down and out. A little effort..YES...but so worth it for the ones that want to. I cannot tell you how much tmjpain has appreciated this. Ok...I will get off my soapbox...just wanted to share some of my feelings with you all. One last thing...we all need a little fun in our lives, and I strongly encourage you to join us in the Chat room on Thursday evenings. If your not sure how to get in there, just send Chutz or one of the other members who have their emails listed, and ASK! We would love to have a full house, although it can be very confusing for a non/multitask person such as myself. You will certianlly enjoy it, even if you just sit there and watch the conversations. I myself look so forward to that evening, and my wife joins in every once in a while too! ....Which reminds me...if you do have a spouse or a child that can run a computer....please ask them to keep us updated on your condition, when your not able to. OK...I'm done....See you all later, and Thank you for your suggestions and encouragement.