I received a letter the other day from the Social Security Disability board and yet again I was denied! What do these people want anyway? In their letter they said that I was highly trained and that I could find another job "where I didn't have to move my left arm above my head". Well that's just peachy because I still can't lift my arm above my waist and my shoulder replacement was Aug.26,2009. I am in such horrible pain that some days I can barely stand it. The fibromyalgia has really gone into high gear and sometimes I just lay in the floor trying to stretch or cause pain in another place so I can think about
it instead of thinking about
my shoulder. Saturday night I was up all night, crying and laying on the kitchen floor just rolling around so as not to wake up my husband. I tried to go without the Fentanyl patch because let's face it...if I'm using those now and get immune to that med then what next? If I get cancer or something they will not be able to "make me comfortable". I'll just be screwed again. I finally did put on the patch last night (it had been a week since I used the last one)) and I do feel better but now I have that "hang over" feeling from lack of sleep and exhaustion. My attorney was just furious that they denied the disability. He said that in all of his 35yrs of this type of practice, he has never had a case like this that should have been granted the first time and certainly should have gone through the second time. He is going to ask for a hearing so that then maybe I can get this over with. I almost never leave the house and I usually run around her with a sleeveless nightgown on so that the clothing doesn't touch my arm. One of these days I'm going to go out into the snow naked and make snow angels! Maybe that would help. The neighborhood would be totally grossed out for sure. I am so exhaused from living this way. I have an appt. with my internest today and hopefully I can go to this pain management group that is associated with my neurosurgeon and see what they have to say. We are also thinking about
going back to the Mayo Clinic in Jacksonville, Florida. I just know that I need help@
Degenerative disc disease,osteoarthritis, status post 4 cervical spinal surgeries with plate insertions and fusion, Lupus, Sjogren's Disease, Fibromyalgia, chronic heacaches and chronic pain.
Find blessings in every day!