I have been on SSD for 7 years and recently had to re-apply! I had no idea I would ever have too. The paperwork alone is overwhelming. The sense of loss is almost like a death. I remember that feeling of "if I could have just done...". It really is difficult, but I hope you remember the other part of it, the good part. For me the good was that I had health care whereas I couldn't get any kind of insurance before. I so hope you get a really good night's sleep. (I know, I know! LOL!) If you are anything like me, that would be like finding the Holy Grail!! May your evening be as relaxing as can be. My thoughts are with you.
DXed-Syringomyelia C-1 to T-1, Hypothyroidism, Diabetes Type II, Adhesive Capsulitis "aka" Frozen Shoulder, IBS, Panic Disorder, ICC (Interstitial Cystitis), Fibromyalgia, Migraines, Bipolar Disorder, Panic Disorder
Too many meds to name/Too many allergic reactions/sensitivities to too many drugs to name. Meds for Panic Disorder, Pain, Bipolar, IBS, Hypothroidism, Diabetes, Insomnia and then some.