It was an emotional day for me. I've sent in the paperwork to my employer and benefit provider to go from short term disability to long term.
I guess I somehow thought things would get better and I'd be able to go back to work after a few months off...my job means the world to me and has been a huge part of my identity for a long time. Unfortunately, I've had no reduction in pain despite various medication changes, and I'm still dealing with the side effects of the various drugs as well. I'm tired all the time...there's just no way I could manage working at this point.
My doctor has been fantastic at getting the needed paperwork done, my employer is supportive so I don't anticipate any issues. LTD will mean 60% of my salary, non taxable, paid monthly, plus my company automatically moves me up to our best benefit level, and takes over paying the premiums, so that helps (my husband only works part time as he's also a part time student, so money is always a concern for us).
I am without an income until the LTD is approved, as the short term ended on the 8th of this month, but we have some money coming from an accident settlement (we were hit broadside in November and both of us suffered some whiplash - sure didn't need that on top of all my other issues).
I know I'm luckier than many of you in the States, where LTD is such an issue to try and get...everything for me is thru my employer, so it won't be a problem. I'm glad I don't have to stress about that, but in a way, it feels like a defeat...like the pain has won and things aren't ever going to get better. I know after a good sleep (HA!) I'll probably feel better and be able to see this in the proper perspective, but today, it just feels like the end of the world.
Hope everyone is having as pain free a day as possible. It's sure good to find a place like this to share, and to know I'll be understood by people who've been there!
hugs to all,
Conditions: Fibromyalgia, Chronic Pelvic Pain, FAI, Reynauds, IBS, Surgical Adhesions, Ophthalmic Migraines
(plus physically unable to vomit due to Nissen, and I have extremely tiny veins...a joy for blood work or IV's)
Surgeries: Appendix, Uterus, Nissen Fundoplication for GERD, Left Ovary, Gallbladder, Right Ovary, TVT
Medications: Oxycontin, Tramacet, Cymbalta, Nortriptyline
Other: Vitamin D, Multi-Vitamin