Thanks for giving me a pep talk, everything helps. Mikel, the lady got right out of the car and took 100% fault,but my lawyer says the case might be sticky because I had my last followup with the surgeon 1 week after the accident and I wasn't released by the surgeon. He did a diskectomy and spinal cord decompression at T10-T11. The surgeon has only seen a couple cases like mine and the attorney couldn't even find a similar accident case to follow for settlement. PaLady, I have been reading your posts and I hate money, I told my husband he could have the money if I ever see it. I have my mind and I guess chronic pain is something I will learn to deal with(I could have something worse) I am goind to be forty and now that I have the pain under control, other things are falling apart, I need glasses(how I will pay for them who knows) I have the week off and if the attorney doesn't get back to me then I need to file bankruptcy Chapter 13, I don't even have the luck to file chapter 7. I want to get up in the morning, not think about bills, not worry about the collectors calling me and calling work, and go get a pack of smokes which I barely can afford. My girls love me, the 8 year old doesn't undertand but my 13 year old does, we used to give her or buy anything for her, I feel I let her down, but she's tough, gets straight A's and I would like to put her thru college. Whe the money situation really kicked in 5 onths ago, my husband yelled at me blaming me, but now he can see how stressed out I am and he told me the other day, I have my health. I feel out love has grown but once I file bankruptcy and everything goes down the toilet, I think he wo't be by my side and just get angry.