To my dear CP Family
The last few weeks have been very trying for me. I have had some dental problems every since I had my Disk fusion in September. Well I kept putting it off and I waited to go to the dentist till my regular scheduled cleaning appointment and exam in January. Well at my appointment, I have found I have a cracked tooth (second from the back upper left side) I need a root canal and a crown, Medicare and Tricare do not cover dental, so I have choosen to wait, at least a little while before having it done. I was told to be extremely careful eating on that side of my mouth, as the tooth is fragile, and could easily shatter, and of course the pain just puts me through the roof when I bite down or anything, or when hot or cold touches it! So I have been careful! A week or so ago I was eating a salad, and I felt something hard , so I checked it out, it was half of a tooth, I checked my teeth, and my bad one was of course OK! I had no Pain! But the the exact same tooth on the upper right side, half of it was missing!!! I called my dentist and I was lucky and got in to my dentist the next day, he wants to put a crown on it. Again I told him it would have to wait, he reluctantly put in a temporary filling and built it up, so it resembles a tooth and there is no hole! It will not last but to be honest the other side must come first as that one is the killer as far as pain goes!
There are several reasons I have put it off, cost is of course one reason, but I have been having problems with my neck and the back of my head, I have had an MRI done a few weeks ago and it appears that the there is nerve root impingement on the right side at C2! Today I had an epidural steroid injection there, in hopes of giving me some relief, and I am scheduled for another one on the 10th of March! So Please Keep your fingers crossed for me that these injections work!
I have also been fighting with my Lawyer, I have had some problems with getting adequate representation????? (For lack of any better way to describe it!) With that said the stress level has been high for me the last few weeks or even months. In the end we did not have to go back to court the 23rd of this month, like it was scheduled! Instead everything was signed and submitted to the Judge, I just found out a few minutes ago, from my Lawyer, that the divorce has been finalized, and we should all be getting our notarized copies in a few days! So I am now divorced. I don't know how to feel? I do not feel sad, but I feel no since of joy either! You know we just had our 35th anniversary the 8th of this month, which of couse was not celebrated! I think, I am glad this part of my life is finally over! Maybe naively, I was hoping that we could at least in some way be on friendly terms, sadly that was not to be! This divorce got to be long and drawn out and turned very nasty! I am not at all sure what I would have done without having all of you here, giving me moral support and advice, both publicly and privately, I can't begin to tell you how much, all of YOU have meant to me!
I Thank each and every one of you!