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Date Joined Mar 2010
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   Posted 3/17/2010 11:17 PM (GMT -6)   
well, i finally had enough harassment from my docs office lady over my bill. i had been making $75-100 a month and only had $400 to go, and she was not giving the doc my refill requests. I could see if i hadnt been paying my bill but she was literally crazy. So i need to find a new doc and i have a lead in seattle to get me started. i live in MT, but i really dont trust the docs here. The pay isnt that great so we dont get the best of the best here.

I also finally heard from my lawyer after 6 months of him not returning my phone calls. I realize now that he is not a quality lawyer and maybe i am lucky that i found that out now. In order to sue the doc who put the epidural needle in my spine 26? times in one area and 5-7 in another, I need someone who knows what they are doing. But it is such a complicated case i didnt know if i could find another lawyer...then last week i think i did! My acupuncurist referred me to a lawyer who was so awesome, so intelligent and compassionate and so good at what he does. I think he could see that I just need some help, and with a little help I plan on doing big things with my life. I guess you could say we connected on some level. I find out next week if he will take the case for sure.

I also started watching my 3 month old nephew this week. I havent "worked" in 3 years, since I had my son. But I have watched my son and neices and nephews on and off...and it is really hard at times. How pathetic that holding or feeding a 9 pound baby a few times a day drove me to tears by the end of the day...I could not believe it. I don't know what I will do yet, if the pain continues to be at this level than i wont be able to continue. The thing is, he had open heart surgery at 2 weeks old and we almost lost him. So being able to hold him and look into his little eyes is so much more of a blessing than it already is with any child. It will be very tough for me to admit to my sister and brother in law that I cant do it, but knowing myself, i will do it until i absolutely cant. Also upping my meds a little bit earlier in the am, i usually wait to take them til later so maybe i can stop the pain somewhat... Also i use a very strong blend of essential oils a few times a day and my EMS machine and a heating pad and neurontin if i can just figure out the best regimen to work with what i have to do every day..i just hope it works out for a while at least.

Other than that, life is good! I am pushing the limits being on the computer this late, but i just needed to "talk." Sorry this is kind of a boring post, but it is what it is, my life!! I would ask anyone who reads this, do you push yourself through the pain some days when you know someone depends on you? Especially children...? I do it a lot, and I dont know if this will make my condition worsen. Also, i am curious as to how long you have had your chronic pain? My injury anniversary is Dec of 07, so its almost 2 1/2 years. I feel like that isnt that long but at the same time, it isnt what i expected 2 years ago. I think i kept thinking that it would get better, so up until now i really havent tried too many treatments. Not to mention, a lot of the options include injections in the back, and i swore id never let anyone near my back with a needle again. Wel, that was two years ago and i am now at the point where i will try anything but surgery.

Ok thanks for reading/listening. as led zeppelin said, "ramble on...nows the time the time is now, sing my song...." and thats what im doing i guess! ; )
TMJ, migraines, i dont know what ailment causing my chronic back pain still trying to find out. but i had 25+epidural attmpts and have had chronic back pain ever since. maybe arachnoiditis or CRPS...but i cant say for sure. meds, i have a cabinet full but cant bring myself to take many of them and they dont work anyways so i stick with hydrocodone, neurontin cream and tizanidine.also, med mj for headaches, as it is legal in MT.

Stella Marie
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Date Joined May 2005
Total Posts : 601
   Posted 3/19/2010 3:00 AM (GMT -6)   
Dear Purplehaze,

Thanks for the update. I hear where you are coming from about watching children. I know when I was feeling better I was asked to watch my niece for a few days. I did not think it was be a problem. WOW. Watching children is hard work. There is a lot of lifting and endless follow as the crawl their way through your house. Then trying to get themt o take a nap is a strange setting, YUCK. At the end of the day, I thought a MACK truck had hit me. So I hear you. I thing you just have to be honest with them and say it is just oo much for you. I know that is what I had to do. At first they may think that you are being selfish, but if you don't set limits for yourself - your health not theirs will suffer. Unfortunately, we just don't have the stamina that a health person has and so it is twice as hard for us to make it through the day. I found that to constant lifting and setting down of a 22 LB toddler to be murder on my back.

Please keep us posted as to what you decide and how your are doing.

Stella Marie   Chronic Pain Forum Moderator

Progressive neurodegenerative disease called Multiple System Atrophy, muscle spasms, muscle pain, neuropathy, & neuropathic pain, central sleep apnea, osteoarthritis, and 2 pain implants – intrathecal pain medication pump and an SCS (spinal cord stimulator).  Extra fun little toys and gadgets; O2 generator and assorted wheelchairs, walkers, canes, and orthotic braces.  Med - too many too list or even care about!



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