Hello HW Family,
It's time for me to retake the comprehensive exam for my masters that I failed about six months ago. I need all the prayers and support I can get! I think the reason I failed was possibly because of the memory problems related to the human growth hormone deficiency. My IQ went from the 130's to 94 (judged by a SSD DR)....but they still denied me. Otherwise I have a 4.0 and have completed all of my courses. I did all that thinking I was going back to work, but that didn't work out.....now I'm just trying to finish what I started to prove that I can. It's really hard and I want so badly to quit!
Anyway, this week holds a great deal of stress and I could use a word of encouragement. My hands are somewhat better and not killing me today, so I'm hoping they will hold out for the test on Wednesday. Tonight is a "family" get together for a 1 year old (that I am obligated to attend, but do NOT want to go to), tomorrow is a 2 1/2 hour trip to stay in a hotel so that I can test on Wednesday and then drive home. My husband has just cancelled being able to drive me and I'm having to depend on a friend (who is just getting over the swine flu) to ride so that I don't freak out. Then on Thursday, I have to drive 1 hour each way to the Endocrinologist, followed by another family "gathering" on Friday. Saturday is an Easter Egg Hunt at the Church, Sunday is a Cantatta (sp) and Monday is a PM Apt that has me really concerned about future care. This is the same one who gave me so many problems about the handicap placard.
To top it all off, I went "shopping" with my sister this weekend (which consisted of three stores...all with very short walks and very short stays), but we had to ride an hour each way. She was great, but I was so overwhelmed with pain and exhaustion that I almost fell at the last store. I was really mad when the clerk "ran me out of the dressing room" to let in a handicap person. I explained in no uncertain words that I was disabled too and that I had never been run out of a dressing room. I then reported her to management because she was rude!! I even told them they could walk to the car and see the permit if they needed to and told them not to judge a person simply because of appearance. The dressing clerk was wonderful and could see that I was in horrible pain. I was trying to find maternity jeans because they are the only kind that I can wear even now a year after my back surgery. Then all of my fresh food spoiled in the car!!!!!
Thanks for letting me vent!
DDD, CHRONIC PAIN SYNDROME, TLIF L5-S1 2009 (failed), FIBRO, MINEYER'S (SP?), VERTIGO, MIGRAINES, GERD, SLEEP DISORDER, NISSEN FUNDOPLICATION (failed), DEPRESSION, EXTREME ANXIETY DISORDER, OCPD, PTSD, CHRONIC MUSCLE SPASMS, HUMAN GROWTH HORMONE DEFICIENCY, VITAMIN D DEFICIENCY, CARPLE TUNNEL SYNDROME, EXTREME IDIOPATHIC HYPOGLYCEMIA FROM AGE 12