need some zs -
I got off all my meds (Lortab, Dilaudid, Soma, Xanax) on my own 10 months ago. The first month was the worst: lethargy, depression, insomnia, unabated pain. It's easier if you can be busy. During the day, busy works, but at night the pain closes in. It helped for me to remind myself that all of symptoms were products of the meds and would abate with time. After about 3 months my mind was clear enough that I was able to begin doing crosswords again. In another life, I was able to do Sunday crosswords in pen. On the meds... well, I used to tell my husband that I couldn't think my way out of a plain cardboard box even if the flaps were open. <vbg>
Dealing with the pain was a little different. I knew it would always be with me, and I had to learn other ways of dealing with it. One thing "they" don't tell you about Rx meds: they make you more sensitive to the pain. It's like a two-pronged sword: tolerance to the meds over time and increased sensitivity to the pain. The good news is, after a few months I noticed that, contrary to what I thought had been happening (worsening pain), my pain was really no worse than it had been 7 years prior when I went on the meds in the first place. Now, I still have the pain but most days it's at a constant level. I'm still learning to deal with it. Good days, bad days, but all drug-free.
You don't say how long you've been on Cymbalta & Wellbutrin. They take a few weeks to a month to give noticeable results. I tried Cymbalta but it made my insomnia worse. If you read your package insert, that's right up there on the list of known side effects. If you suspect this may be the case with you, talk to your Dr about getting on something that's not in the SSRI/SNRI family.
Above all, hang in there.
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Bulges: T8/9; T9/10; T10/11
ACDF C4/5 right 05/2008
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"What does not destroy me makes me stronger." - Friedrich Nietzsche