Relieved but scared

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Burdensome Love
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   Posted 3/25/2010 7:34 PM (GMT -6)   
My calve pain has been very persistent lately. Last night it was excruciating to the point of disturbing my sleep. My fiance was finally home for the night and we weren't even able to cuddle I was so uncomfortable. cry

After the response I had gotten from the GP here in Santa Barbara of pretty much refusing to treat me, I e-mailed my endocrinologist in Orange County and she automatically came back with a prescription to have me go get an ultrasound done for venous thrombosis. This is a concern considering my dad just recently got out of the hospital for having a blood clot in his lung and is now on Coumadin. She also mentioned possibly having a Baker's cyst. I looked that one up and that doesn't sound quite right, but the ultrasound will tell all. I go on Monday at 11am.

She is also testing my Vitamin D, magnesium, calcium, thyroid, and potassium levels, which any can apparently can be a cause for pain.

I am relieved to know that back home I have doctors who care, not just someone who wants to clear me as a medical emergency and then get paid by the insurance for practically doing nothing. If that's what the medical profession has become, then I am truly ashamed.

I am scared, because what if I do wind up having blood clots? That certainly doesn't lead to a good prognosis. Then, what if all these tests wind up showing that everything is perfectly fine? I am still left with no answers. These are horrible what ifs and I know the what if game is a horrible thing to do to yourself, but it's inevitable.

I just want answers!!!! Monday at 11am cannot come soon enough.

~ Burdensome Love

White Beard
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   Posted 3/25/2010 11:12 PM (GMT -6)   
Burdensome Love

Please don't play that "what if" game it is not inevitable! You don't have to play those mind games with your self if you don't want! It just takes allot of will power and determination that is all! I know you want answers, and you will get them in due course, and as you get your answers you will deal with them for what they are! But you can't deal with stuff when you don't know what they are, so don't even try! We will help you get through this time, just keep posting and if nothing else get yourself involved with other threads and post to keep your self occupied! We are all here for you!

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   Posted 3/26/2010 6:30 AM (GMT -6)   
Dear Love,
White Beard had very wise words as always! I will add that my dear Mother-in-law had a blood clot that developed in her leg so, they put her in the hospital, inserted a stent and she takes Coumidan now. It was truly that simple and she is doing fine. I will also tell you that I'm a terrible "what if'fer"! So, I know where you are coming from. I hope you will allow yourself the freedom of a stress-less (maybe not stress free!) weekend. Then go in, have the test and we'll all be waiting to hear how it went. We many not be present in the physical relm, but we are always with you emotionally for anything you need. Please keep us informed!! BIG breath, now let it out slowly. I alway find that breathing like that will either calm me down or make me pass out one!! Just kidding. Take care Love and let us know how you are over the weekend and also for sure when you find out what the tests say.
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Burdensome Love
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   Posted 3/26/2010 4:41 PM (GMT -6)   
Thank you White Beard.... I always seem to fall into the trap. The emotions that come with having so many unanswered questions is such a psychological trip. And when you are alone and not doing very much, your brain starts to do go on overdrive with bad thoughts. Luckily today was an active day with me having to drive down to Ventura for a CPR/1st AID certification course, however my body was not thrilled with the hour drive of being tucked in the car and then having to be down on me knees performing CPR on a mannequin. Nevertheless, I passed with flying colors, and that makes me proud of myself.

Tomorrow, the fiance and I will be doing a day trip down to the Santa Monica pier and Venice Beach and then finish up with dinner with his grandparents. It will be a horribly long day, but I look forward to being able to spend a long deserved and much needed day with my love. This should definitely do the trick of taking my mind of what is to come or not come on Monday. Already I feel like I don't care anymore, for all I am thinking about now is how very much I would like to take a nap. :/ Is this progress?

I will definitely keep you all posted. I don't know how long the results will take coming in, considering I am getting the ultrasound performed here in Santa Barbara and they have to get sent to my doctor in Orange County, but you will here from me. :)

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   Posted 4/9/2010 3:24 PM (GMT -6)   
I hope you have a great weekend.
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   Posted 4/9/2010 3:44 PM (GMT -6)   
Burdensome Love, first of all try not to panic, things might seem grim, but, it also just might be arthritis..
So I'll be keeping you in my prayers with lots of well wishes..Have you tried ice packs as they might help..
and congrats on passing your course...kudos...
will be looking for your posts...
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Burdensome Love
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   Posted 4/10/2010 5:59 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Chartreux -

Thanks for looking in on me. My doctor thankfully performed a battery of tests awhile back to rule out arthritis and rheumatoid arthritis as both run in the family. I have no chance for either. :)

The pain has somewhat lessened, however during the night if I stretch I can feel cramping. And this week was definitely only a one time visit to the gym. My calves took a beating. So, I take my good days with my bad days and try to go for afternoon walks. However, this week my back injury has flared up, and my hip as started to swell, so I feel like a mess.

I am still waiting to hear back from my doctor on some new blood tests she ran. Those are my last hope on what might be causing the pain, unless she can come up with any other ideas. So, my pain may be of unknown origin.

Thanks for the ice pack idea... The only thing I can do is heat though, which I do on a regular basis.

And thanks for the congrats on my course! Much appreciated. :)

Hope you are having a semi to pain free day!

~ Burdensome Love
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