Thank you, Cat.
I'm sorry that you have been suffering for so long.
For as long as I could remember, my own blood family never felt like family at all. I've always been a healthier person without them. I truly believe that you can, and often times even should choose your family. I've learned the importance of surrounding yourself with like-minded people who share your ideals, and beliefs. Unconditional love isn't something that you are born of. I've been able to find it from others who I am not at all physically related to. That's when you really know it's unconditional, and that there are no strings attached.
Thank you for your kindness, and understanding. It means so much to me. I'm glad you lived today, and that you're going to live everyday. That's just what I want to do, too. It's time for me to end this state of mourning I've been in, and time to start taking steps in the direction I want to travel.
31 year old female
Chronic pain, GI inflammation, Asthma, catracts, Depression, chest pain, frequent fevers, vomiting, weight loss, insomnia, the list goes on. 16 months into this, I still have no official diagnosis.
"Be the change you wish to see in the world" - Ghandi
Posted 4/4/2010 7:57 PM (GMT -7)
I'm new to this forum myself. It's actually the first time I've posted in the Chronic Pain forum. I've had medical problems since 16 (I'm 26 now) but it's always been no more than a year when one was "fixed" (via surgery, etc.) another problem came up. Now, I have severe Interstitial Cystitis (chronic bladder pain), Pelvic Floor Dysfunction, and well a ton of other things. Last year alone I was diagnosed with gastric ulcers, had my gallbladder out (even though all the tests came up fine) and turned out I had chronic infectious gallbladder, a month later I passed my first kidney stone, and less than 2 months after that had my appendix out (the reason I was having pain before my gallbladder) and turned out to have Appendicitis. So needless to say, thank god I had the best Gastroenterologist in the world and trusted my symptoms over all the negative tests. I've been told "there's nothing I can do for you" more times I can count.
I guess the point is, there is something wrong, obviously...you are not crazy and I am glad you took the steps to talk about it and get it out. I guess the point is you should trust yourself to keep fighting until you find an answer - you sure sound like a fighter to me...even though it may be exhausting and frustrating and you may and will feel hopeless and cry sometimes and feel sorry for yourself and mourn - and that's PERFECTLY OK - it's normal and you are totally allowed. You just seem strong enough to not stay in that place. You will get your life back...you will get some friends back...and you willl make plenty of new ones, here and elsewhere. I love your quote...just believe in yourself. I have to tell myself every day that it could be worse...it doesn't seem like it some days, but it could always be worse. Keep on fighting my dear :)
Posted 4/4/2010 8:16 PM (GMT -7)
Remember baby steps will still get you to your destination and goals
If you falter..reach out
We are always here
and im glad you have a mindset like you do you will make it
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