Dani so nice to hear from you. I miss you.
I started my third cycle of ketamine via my PICC Line. I feel terrible and this lasts a good seven to ten days. My pain, headache, is bad. I need my cane, i am confused at times, wonky, nauseated, and very emotional. I have cried buckets. Yesterday on Monday it was about
the very possibility that I may never be able to go back to work, my dream job, as a nurse at a children's hospital. How I miss looking after the sick children. They break my heart to see them in pain, and it hurts me to know i may never be able to help them again. Although after talking with my church ladies today, it brought me much comfort in knowing that if I cannot work there anymore I will definitely volunteer in one way or another. And speaking of church ladies, my oh my, but do they ever make me feel better. I look forward to their visit each week, have a chat say some prayers and have communion. I know that God is carrying me through this tough times and i will get thru it with Him at my side. My Faith has helped me immensely thru this illness. If you have never read the "Footprints" poem, then you must read it. It will help all of us who are suffering with chronic pain.
Thank you for sharing yourself with me today Dani. I will send you an email soon. And I would love to see more pics of your beautiful bumblebees.
Chronic, severe and continuous bilateral temporal headaches since April 2000.
Poor prognosis, seen thousands of doctors, been on dozens of meds and tried all forms of treatment with no success.
Currently Feb 2010: cycles of IV Ketamine infusion via a PICC line and pump at home with some success.
Meds: oxycodone for breakthrough, cymbalta, vitamin D, B12, magnesium, omega 3, melatonin
Profession: Part time registered nurse on Long term disability and applying for permanent disability thru CPP
52 yrs old, female, married, two boys 19 & 21, live in Ottawa, Ontario, Canada