i've decided to be open about the problems that i am having. i hope and pray that i am not part of the reason some people are not posting, but i've only been myself on here. actually this is one of the few places where i can be totally honest about my life and my struggles with chronic pain. unfortunately i have been a "chat hog" lately and i have felt guilty for it. i am also on facebook, but it is not my full name, I am Cat Tabatha :) and it is meant for healing well friends only so i can be open.
with that being said, i'm struggling. i'm in so much pain that i cannot be touched right now. HOWEVER i admit that i have a problem with opiates. my tolerance seems to be incredibly high and i admit that i was also abusing my meds in order to cope with the emotional struggles that go along with mourning chronic pain, along with other issues.
i'm tired right now, and i'm not sleeping well because of pain. i'm taking neurontin and robaxim for the pain.
this is where i need you guys. i'm leaving to go into an intensive 30 -45 day treatment facility on tuesday. i will miss this forum tremendously. i desperately need prayers, support, and LETTERS. i will not be able to see my son for the entire time, but i will be able to see my husband every sunday and he will use his cell to take video's for my son. and we will write.
i'm scared. the fear just hit me, but i'm so scared. i'm in so much pain that i'm not sure how i'm going to make it through this, but i need your support and advice. i know that i can do this, and i know this is a crucial step in managing my pain, but my emotions are rampant.
i'm sorry if this is dramatic or off topic, but this is one of my biggest support systems. thank you in advance for helping and thank you for reading and helping.
27 yrs old-Fibromyalgia; PCOS; Surgery induced Menopause; Classic Migraines with Aura; Neuropathy; Ankylosing Spondylitis w/ narrowing around the spinal cord; Spinal Stenosis of the Cervical & Lumbar Spine; other little things
Medications for pain: Oxycontin; Soma **will update when change meds for sleep, etc.
Other treatment: Aquatic Therapy (still have to start); Sleep Study (need a sitter)