I'm late, but I am here. It has been a horrible few weeks. I don't know where to begin. The suffering seems too much to bear most days. I often ask why me, why did He choose me to bear this heavy cross??? I don't know why and I'm tired of it. I want me back, the good old happy Suzane, who was so much fun, who always smiled and laughed, who enjoyed the simple things in life, helped people, gave of herself each and every day, was a great nurse to sick children at the hospital!! Where is she?? Will she ever be back?? I hope so? I need her!!
Missing you all.
Chronic, severe and continuous bilateral temporal headaches since April 2000.
Poor prognosis, seen thousands of doctors, been on dozens of meds and tried all forms of treatment with no success.
Currently Feb 2010: cycles of IV Ketamine infusion via a PICC line and pump at home with some success.
Meds: oxycodone for breakthrough, cymbalta, vitamin D, B12, magnesium, omega 3, melatonin
Profession: Part time registered nurse on Long term disability and applying for permanent disability thru CPP
52 yrs old, female, married, two boys 19 & 21, live in Ottawa, Ontario, Canada