Dear NES , I also welcome you to the HW family , you are most welcome .I relate to some of your story , the feeling hopeless and alone part .At 53 I had never had a serious health problem and suddenly my hip started to hurt , its progressed to where I was in constant pain needed a cane then a walker to walk , couldn't shop or wash clothes for myself and was cut off from family who lived far away except for a brother who worked and had his own life .I was depressed and suicidal and hopeless .I finally came to a point where i chose life over suicide and used the computer to start to reach out , I found this forum and other services that helped .There are hot lines you can call if you just need to talk to someone , the goverment will provide a home attendant to assist you in every day tasks you need help with .Are there any hobbies like painting or meditation you like ? You can take classes to learn them just to get out and be with people , don't isolate under any circumstances , that will increase your deporession . I see a pain therapist to help me deal with the emotional aspect of having constant pain .,You can still have a fullffilling life , I promise you you can .Don't try to have the same life you had , accept that it will be different but can still be fullfilling and worth living .Best of luck to you and keep writing in , you'll make friends here you'll treasure forever , I have and you can to !!!
HIV+ , Need hip replacement , have a cellulitus like condition on leg that is stubborn , using anti-biotics to try to get rid of but its stubborn .Started eating completley healthy juicing every day , no sugar , taking vitiamins and anti-oxidents , virigin coconut oil ,only veggies and fruits mostly , no red meat .feel better.Meds:viracept truvada,indothemicin. Pain from hip and leg use cane or rolator to walk .