Hi NES, I too would like to welcome you to Healing Well's chronic pain forum. I am glad you found us and I hope you will find what you are needing here. Like yourself, everyone here has a story to tell. Its amazing how many of us are out there and I often wonder about
the ones that have not found a place to visit and talk to others that understand what they are going thru. Your accident sounds horrible to say the least. My brother had a bad accident 5-6 yrs ago, he was pronounced dead the scene and the paramedics managed to bring him back, although we were told he would never come out of the coma he did, he beat every odd he was given. Like you he had more surgeries than one can possibly think a person can, just trying to survive. He is still getting back bits and pieces of his memory. I cannot imagine what you are dealing with since you do remember the accident quite vividly too. I imagine you are dealing with a lot of Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome.
You are really one strong person to have survived the accident, 2 months ahead of your PT progress, you have will and determination, otherwise you would not be where you are now. Something I learned a long time ago, CP is not for the weak. A person must be very strong to live with the issues of what a true chronic pain patient goes through on a daily basis. I admire your strength, even though you may think it is not much, you have come a long way in a short amount of time. I know your drs are saying a good year to recover, it may be longer than that, each day that passes you are getting stronger. Everyone is different in how they heal.
As for trying to get your new home in order you are wise to unpack a few boxes a day. You cannot afford to overdue or over extend yourself because that comes with a high price. Don't be so hard on yourself, you have done a great deal considering. I still get discouraged at times because I am so slow compared to what I use to be like. Its hard accepting ourselves as we are now. I have days that I am mad because I don't like who I have become or what I can't do that is part of CP. Its like riding a roller coaster sometimes and you want to scream for them to stop and let you off. I don't know if you have talked with your drs about depression or not, but depression and CP go hand in hand. Being put on an antidepressant was one the smartest things that I could have ever done. There are many different ones available, its finding the one that works the best for you.
None of us here likes to having to take pain medication and we all wish we could just wake up one day and say the pain is gone and I no longer need these medications. But, for many of us it is always going to be a part of our every day life in order to have some quality life. If this is how I am going to have some quality life then so be it. I would rather be on top of the pain than it be on top of me.
Please keep posting and let us know how you are coming along.
crohns disease dx 2002 & small bowel resection, still looking for remission whatever that is, chronic pain 22 yrs, added ulcerative colitis 6-05 to the mix, high blood pressure 28 yrs, aortic heart valve insuffiency, depression, osteoarthritis, osteoporosis lumbar spine, scoliosis lumbar spine, peripheral neuropathy hands & feet, COPD & on oxygen therapy, lupus & psoriasis and psoratic arthritis. Several other health issues just not enough room to list it all. Too many surgeries to list and too many medications to list. Currently on 17 different daily medications. Intrathecal pain pump implanted June 05.