Hi everyone. Hope you are having a LPD. I don't know where to start, it's been awhile and I am sorry for that. It seems like just reading the posts takes so long and I have a hard time using the keyboard,heck it will probly take me a few hours to do this one. As you all know I have several strokes and forever waiting to see if Medicaid will pay for the biggee I'm still careying inside my head,waiting for that to blow. Its like a timebomb and I never know when or if it will be the one the kills me. I have been having trouble with falling and Jaysons getting tired of picking me up off the floor. I dont blame him sometimes its a nightly thing. Specially in the bathroom. I seem to fall there alot. I have to wait forever for me to go potty,its a long story but while I m there I am so exhausted that a dooze off and then I hit the wall and then the floor. Really though I am surprized that the clot in my head hasnt been jared loose or I havnt bee nso bad that I have gone to the hospital. I probly shoud have a few times but really what are they going to do with bunch of pulled muscles and a few lumps on my head?
Now I have big splits on all the fingers from gardening and washing my hands with the cold days we are still having. My hands split easy since I got diabetes and they take awhile to heal and then I am having problems with my big toes being ingown since the nails are narrowing at the tips and they hurt so much. All swollen so I cant hardly ware shoes and then you have all the bruising from the falls I am a huge mess. And through all of this trying to take care of the elderly Mom its just too much ya know? After I clean my house i have to go over to Moms to do a bunch of chores and then go to the store for her. If her place isnt clean then she will have to go to a nursing home and I am not going to let that happen as long as I can gimp my butt over there.
I am having so much pain everyday. Some times a just go numb to it all and thats good I guess until it comes crashing back. I am turning fifty this summer and people tell me I still look way younger but I feel like I am eighty. I have some days where I cry alone because ppl get tired of seeing it. I feel so alone much of the time. I feel if I dont do the stuff that they need of me that I would not see them very often. Just like my daughter. Her cake business if finally taking off and she needs me to watch her 4 kids while shes out on cake calls doing serving and such and I am very proud of her,she has done all this by herself taught her self how to make beautiful wedding cakes and all kinds of cakes with figurs on them that are so life like its amazing but she still needs someone and its usually me to watch the kids. Barbarann is a perfectionist and can be very highstrung and talks down to me at times. She gets frustraited with me because I cant remember things and doesnt like to be told again and agian. Its not my fault I dont mean to make her mad same as with Jayson. I feel like ppl treat me like im retarded with the way I stammer my speach and cant think of the right words. But they still like me enough when I get the job done for them. Please be forgiving with my spelling as it would take forever to get it right.
So now I have blabbed too long Im sorry to bend your ear so long ,well your eyes I guess lol. I just want you to know that I love you all so much and even if I dont type mych know that I am reading and care for you and all that ails you.
Mom of one gramma to 4 lover to One
Had another stroke 2/09 and it took my speach for the most part and dont know when it will coming back. Had another stroke summer of 09, found out I have a block artery 80% blocked and waiting on Medicaid to do the surgery to hopfully save my life it was denied in winter of 09. Still praying.
Fibromyalgia,IBS,Stroke x2,endometriosis,Diabetes type 2,neuropathic pain,nerve damage due to tailbone removel,nerve damage due to fractured back,deppresion,high blood pressure,severe nausea,atrophy,chronic pain,nerve damage due to botched bladder surgery,torn hip joint,hypoglycymic
Norco(double strength vicodin) 80 to 100 mg @ day
Ms Contin(morphine) 45 mg @ day,Lyrica 600mg @ day
Plavix(blood),Baclofen(muscle relaxer),Prilosec(acid blocker),Januvia(diabetes),Motrin,Meclizine(nausea)Prozac(deppresion)Melatonin(sleep) and thats all folksssssss(for now lol)