Posted 5/7/2010 9:38 PM (GMT -7)
I just need to vent a bit here. I am sick and tired of how my pain and constant exhaustion keep interfering with real life. Dear friends of mine have two daughters, ages 18 and 15. We've seen them grow up, and been part of many special moments in their lives. Today, the oldest girl had the lead role in her school's annual drama presentation. I've had tickets for weeks and have been so excited to see the show.
Well, today was the play and I was so sore and exhausted, I couldn't even get out of bed. My hubby had to help me up to the bathroom - there was no way I could even attempt to attend the play.
IT'S NOT FAIR!!!!!!
There, I've said it. I am so upset I couldn't attend this play to cheer my girls on. I am fed up with how often my health interferes with the things I love. I am generally not a whiner, but I am SOOO over this. It's stupid, I hate hurting, and I've had enough.
I am doing everything I can to be as well as possible - exercising, trying to eat better, taking my vitamins, doing my stretches and other classes. I do feel better most days - at least, I am on medications that help me to feel as well as possible - but there are more "bad" days than good right now and they crop up at the worst times.
Okay...vent is over. I know a lot of people here feel the same way. I just needed to get it off my chest.
hugs to all, and I hope it's a good weekend for everyone, with as little pain as possible.
Conditions: Fibromyalgia, Chronic Pelvic Pain, Femoralacetabular Impingement (CAM and Pincer), Reynauds, IBS, Interstitial Cystitis, Surgical Adhesions, Ophthalmic Migraines, Severe Hot Flashes (both Surgical Menopause and medication related), plus physically unable to vomit due to the Nissen, and I have extremely tiny veins with a lot of scar tissue...a joy when it comes to having to give blood or get an IV started
Surgeries: Appendix, Uterus, Nissen Fundoplication for GERD, Left Ovary, Gallbladder, Right Ovary, TVT
Medications: Oxycontin, Cesamet, Tramacet, Cymbalta, Flexeril and Clonidine plus Laxaday, Vitamin D and a Multi-Vitamin daily