Good morning! *warm huggs* How was you night, last night? Were you able to calm your mind enough to get some restfull sleep? Probably not.....but it would sure be nice if you could find time to go sit in the park or tire yourself out so you can get some good restfull naps or sleep in. Surley by now you are exhausted. *hugg*
Did I ever tell you about the time I thought the kidds were dying? No?!?! Well, let me tell you about the adventure that my poor brain took me on. Oh the thinking we can think when we just dont know what is going on!
I woke up early! I had alot to do! Got the girls breakfeast set up on the breakfeast bar. I hopped in the shower while calling for the girls to wake up and eat. While I was in the shower....
My littlest bumblebee says, "Mom...MOM! OH MOM!"
"What? Why arnt you eating, we have got to get going bumblebee!"
"I don't feel so gooooood....."
And just at the moment I peek out from the shower curtian she is vomiting blood. Everywhere. I jump out of the shower. Spring in to action!
"OOOooOOh bunny, it is okay. Just breathe. lean over the toilet. Im going to get the phone and some raggs, dont worry. Mommy is right here. Hold on."
I slap on clothing, grabb raggs, call 911. Scoop up the blood and put it in a sanwhich bag. Wait for the ambulance! They show up, my clothes are drenched because I never dried off. I hand them the offensive blood in a bag and off we go to the emergency room!
Rosie finally stopps vomiting. We are all noticing at this point that it is awfully bright colored red. Never the less, we are all proceeding the utmost urgency! By the time we get to the hospital my little Bee has finally stopped vomiting. She tells me she is tired and thirsty. So I get her apple juice and hot blanket. As she is settling down in my lap, we are all beginning to notice a strange "sugary" smell??? But we wait patiently for the doctor to come from the other hospital. While sitting and waiting I am sure she has lukemia, maybe some strange and horrible thing is happening to her stomach, what if her organs shut down??? And WHY isnt the doctor taking so long to get here! What if she has to stay in the hospital the rest of her little life!?!!
Then the strangest thing happened......
My oldest Bumblebee says" Mommy I am STARVING!"
I said,"Didn't you eat your breakfeast?"
She says," No Mommy, all we had for breakfeast was a whole bag of valentine heart lollipops. Can we eat now??"
Yes! A whole bag of bright red heart shaped lollipops. There was atleast 30 or so in there.
...Noone is dying.
.....the doctor comes in laffing so hard!!! He huggs them and asks if they ever saw a magic show?! If not he will show them his master Magic skills! (It really was a cute magic show)
Thank goodness, the bills arrive and we are only charged for the medical equiptment costs. Noone charged for their time. So how much does one bag of red heart shaped lollipops cost?
So no. You are not silly for thinking the worst. At times I think my mind is plotting against me. We just dont agree on much, my brain and I. So I completly understand your brain making you think of all the things that could possibly be going on with you (frankly rather scary) Lump on your chest. But, I do know you pretty well, and I worry you probably havnt slept much the last few days. So, try to get to a point where you can rest somewhat if you can. Hopefully the doctor will have answers for you tomorrow. You are ALWAYS in our prayers here.
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
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Posted 6/7/2010 7:18 AM (GMT -7)
Mikel, sending good thoughts your way and I'll keep you in my prayers. I certainly understand that feeling of waiting for the next medical thing that's going to happen and not being able to get a break...I've been experiencing that for a long time.
I hope the doctor is able to quickly determine the severity of the lump. I also pray that if there is something serious, you're able to get it taken care of quickly and completely, without need for further medical intervention when it's gone.
Keep your chin up, focus on the positives in your life and keep leaning on us when you need to.
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Posted 6/7/2010 8:55 AM (GMT -7)
Hey my brothers and sisters thanks so much for your support and caring , its impossible not to feel loved in the most special way being iin our Forum Family .Thanks Jag for relating your expierence to me , that I understand, is how most of cases like this play out , but it really makes it real when a friend has expierenced it , so thank you for telling me my friend .Pete thanks to you also for relating that very important aspect of a mans life when he reaches this age , I've really been dreading that happening .It hasn't yet but I'll definetly check it out , perhaps I can head any such situation from occuring and that would be a godsend . Shannon , thank you for thinking of me , it helps a lot , and Patti thank you as well for your unwavering support . Dani Girl I really appreciate you relating that expierence with little Rosie , I don't think theres anything more frightening then when you feel your child is in danger , and the relief is like floating on air .Thanks so much for understanding my panic , I do feel a lot less silly about my panicky reaction now . Pam having friends who know what its like to feel like it seems life is always is dishing you out another pain or health challenge really makes me feel a much more normal person , simply dealing with the challenges life presents like everyone else and that puts the mind in a much better place , making life a lot more bearable and even nice .I thank you all for having a significant role in making my life feel nice and full of wonderful friends .There is little more a person could ask for .Big Time Love to Everyone , Your Brother Mirel
Posted 6/7/2010 10:14 AM (GMT -7)
Just wanted to say hi to you today mikel and see how you are doing. What are you up to today. sorry for my bad memory but are you seeing your doctor soon re: the lumps on your chest? I just wanted to make sure you are doing ok.
Chronic, severe and continuous bilateral temporal headaches since April 2000.
Poor prognosis, seen thousands of doctors, been on dozens of meds and tried all forms of treatment with no success.
May 2010 to present taking DM, dextromethorphan, 4x/day, to continue to reset the receptors, weaning off of oxycodone as it did not help with my pain, pain continues to be terrible every minute of every day!
Feb to end of April 2010:3 cycles of IV Ketamine infusion via a PICC line and pump at home, this was to try to break the pain cycle by resetting the receptors
Meds: oxycodone for breakthrough, cymbalta, vitamin D, B12, magnesium, omega 3, melatonin
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Posted 6/7/2010 12:59 PM (GMT -7)
Hi Mikel I'm sorry that you have yet another thing on your plate. I am praying that the lump turns out to be nothing. I've also heard that if the lump hurts then it's nothing serious. We'll be here waiting to hear about how your appointment goes tomorrow. Take care my friend.
love and hugs
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Posted 6/7/2010 1:40 PM (GMT -7)
I'm really glad to hear that you are going to get this lump checked out right away. It may be nothing, but on the other hand, it may be something & if it is something you definitely don't want to put off getting it checked out. Try not to worry yourself too much with "what if's" in the mean time. Finding something like this is scary & I know how easy it can be to let your mind get carried away. I'm praying for some good news for you tomorrow.
Posted 6/7/2010 2:37 PM (GMT -7)
I have to believe that it going to turn out ok for you. It just has to, you have had your share of bad news, this has got to balance out and just be nothing.
Heres praying it is and sending only positive healing thoughts
sick and tired of being sick and tired
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