Good evening *warm hugg* It is good to hear from you. I am glad you stopped by. Hopefully, you will be fast asleep right now..but I worry you probably arnt. I am so very sorry your life is in such a whirl-wind. Isnt it awfull how emotional pain can make your chronic pain feel even worse?? *sigh* Good news is that the CBT will help. I loved mine. I was worried and scared at first, you know all the taboo around psychology... but it was the best thing that ever happened to me. I hope your experience is good too.
I am so sorry your family is torn and worse, are placing such a heavy burdon on your shoulders. Have you ever thought about family counseling with your daughter and brother? Or maybe start up a once monthly activity that involes all of you getting together for a day? Like a family BBQ, or maybe a "movie and brunch" day? I can tell plain as day that the turmoil between you, your daughter, brother hurts you alot. I am so sorry *warm huggs*
Your fiance sounds like he is afraid of what is going on with you. I remember how scared my husband and I were when I first became sick. I just wanted to run away, and be hugg and loved all at the same time. He wanted to fix it and make it all "Ok" somehow. Finally one day I said "I NEED you to hugg me and love me even when I am pushing you away! Can't you see I am scared?!?!". When is the last time you and your finace sat down and enjoyed one anothers company? Like a date night or "saturday night out"? Or sat and talked about what you really "need" from him to feel better? Ways that he could really "help" you? Sorry for all the questions. I know you have alot on your plate right now..But, I want you to remember that chronic pain changes who you are as a person, and sometimes we need to get to know our loved ones all over again because we ourselves have changed into a different person.
Most of all I want you to know that you can do this. Your life has you going through so many changes all at once, but with your drive, and dedication you can get through this! One step at a time, one deep breath at a time. Please know you are in our prayers here. Stay strong!
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
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