Hi All - I also posted this on the fibro board but thought I'd post here as well in case I can get some more feedback. Thanks!
Not sure if you guys remember me but I posted a while ago about
how I was finding it hard to find someone to prescribe hydrocodone for my fibro, that along with Zanaflex is the only thing that seems to help.
I only took, at the most, one a day, when I got home from work and it helped me function. Believe me - I am not looking for drugs to get high, just want to be able to live a hal-way normal life and go to work every day so I can survive.
My Primary went on early maternity leave and her "successor" would not continue with her prescription so I have been to 2 rheumatologists, the ER and a new primary care. The second rheumotologist suggested accupuncture but I just can't afford it. My husband was in a car accident back in March and hasn't worked so we are struggling to pay our ortgage and for the meds we both need.
This particular rheumotologist that sent me for accupuncture is very nice. He originally prescribed Tramadol but I can't take that as it makes me so dizzy, I can't stand up. He could not or would not prescribe the hydrocodone. He even said that he could tell that i was not someone who would abuse drugs. He also cautioned me against taking Lyrica or Savella as they are forms of Gabopentin, which I had a problem with about 10 years ago. I became suisidal after about a week and a half of taking it.
So I suggested a pain clinic. He thought it was a great idea and told me - in sort of a roundabout way - that they would be able to prescribe the hydrocodone for me as he couldn't.
Well, the long awaited appt was last Monday. I had kept a pain diary for 2 weeks, had typed up a couple of pages telling about the oset and history of my fibro. The nurse spent quite a while with me and asked me what had worked for me in the past. So I told her, a combo of hydrocodone and Zanaflex. And I told her about my issue with gabopentin. Well, then the doctor comes in, he was so cavalier about my condition! He said, what's with this suicide thing? I was so shocked that he was so rude! He then suggest I try Lyrica, and I told him my reasons for not wanting to try it. I also have a severe panic disorder and I do not want to add anything to my mix of meds that will give me any other side effects. I am funtioning and working now and can't afford to mess that up. The hydrocodone doesn't give me any lasting side effects and doesn't interfere with my other meds.
Well, he did up my Zanaflex to 2 before bedtime, so that was great and has helped but he said he would not prescribe hydrocodone and prescribed Lidocaine patches. He told me to "put them where they hurt" - Honey, I hurt EVERYWHERE! Does he have a wet suit made of lidocaine? He then proceeded to tell me that sometimes Fibro goes away! Really? You are a pain doctor and this is what you've seen in your practice?
He wants me to come back in a month to see how I'm doing. I already paid this guy 40 bucks to insult me. Not to mention that he and the nurse were giving each other little looks during the whole time.
I called the rheumotologist the next day, told him what ahppened and asked him if he would prescribe for me and he said, "I can't. Unfortunately, you'll have to play the game with this other doctor. Go back and tell him that what he gave you doesn't work and then maybe he'll prescribe."
Frankly, I do not want to go back to this insulting and unfeeling man, pay him 40 more dollars and still not get what I need to make me feel better.
I can barely move and NOTHING is helping. I have a feeling that he wouldn't give me the scrip because of the suicide issue I told him about. This happened 10 years ago, I was on a medication that can cause suicidal thoughts and they went away when I went of the med. I do not see this as a problem.
Really, what is the issue, WHY can't I find anyone to help me? I am SO tired and sick and tired. I am now starting to look like a drug seeker. I have never done any illicit drugs in my 52 years. I barely took an aspirin until I was 28 years old. Why is the medical community making it so hard for me to get help?
I feel like Elaine on Seinfeld when her chart was marked "diffiduclt" and every doctor she went to had access to it.
Sorry, just needed to vent. Thanks for listening!