Hello Angelemie and welcome to the forums. I am so sorry to hear of how your car accident changed your life so drastically. It saddens me when I hear about people who were perfectly "normal" and then a sudden situation renders their lives completely differently in just a split second. You and your hubby have been dealt a real blow in your relationship and it's going to take a lot of work from both of you to keep things good between the two of you.
I wanted to ask a question and please forgive me if I'm being nosy, but what did you mean when you said "After the accident, I lost my sister, mother, father, best friend, and all my in laws." I really hope you don't mean physically, as in they passed away...that would be a tragedy larger than my mind could comprehend.
I agree with our dear Mikel that if you're not already seeing a psychologist or therapist to deal with the emotional issues you're going thru, you might want to consider it. You've got a lot to work thru and help like that would be valuable. Does your phone book have a section on community services, near the front? Many counsellors work on a sliding scale fee wise, based on your income, so it's worth looking into.
As for the physical issues, are you currently seeing a pain doctor? What kind of treatments are you getting (or are you?). Are you on any medication? There are many different things that can be tried to help you, so seeing a good doctor goes a long way in getting help. I don't know if you qualify for any kind of subsidies, or financial aid for appointments or medicine, but you might want to ask at your doctor's office or at the Emergency Room at your nearest hospital.
I know your life has changed completely Angelemie, and it's hard to accept how different things are now, but you do need to find a path to acceptance and learn to live with your new self. It is possible to do, and you'll find many, many people on these forums who have been through it, just like I have. Feel free to come here and vent away. If you ever truly feel suicidal, please contact the Hopeline - http://www.hopeline.com/
Conditions: Fibromyalgia, Severe Myofascial Pain, Chronic Pelvic Pain (with permanent muscle damage), Femoroacetabular Impingement (CAM and Pincer), Reynauds, IBS, Surgical Adhesions, Ophthalmic Migraines, Severe Hot Flashes (both Surgical Menopause and medication related), plus physically unable to vomit due to the Nissen, and I have extremely tiny veins with a lot of scar tissue...a joy when it comes to having to give blood or get an IV started
Surgeries: Appendix, Uterus, Nissen Fundoplication for GERD, Left Ovary, Gallbladder, Right Ovary, TVT
Medications: Oxycontin, Cesamet, Tramacet, Cymbalta, Flexeril and Clonidine plus Laxaday, Vitamin D and a Multi-Vitamin daily