I am having an odd delimma as of late. Though I know I have more important problems on my hands this is something that I really want to do.....
As my deformity progresses my hip is now all of an inch or so from my bottom 4 ribbs. Now, it is rotating towards the rear a few inches. My deformity is obvious. Up until now I have been wearing strategic clothing to try to "hide" as much of it as possible, though it is still obvious that the big lump in my lower chest is my hip and the lump in my back is my shoulder blade protruding out unnaturally.
Recently, despite my best efforts, my walk is the obvious hobble of someone with a deformity. My deformity in hip and shoulder is... sickening and obvious. People do not look me in the eye anymore the last 2 months. If I look at them, the immediatly look at the floor, or away. A bummer, my new smile cost thousands of dollars and I like to smile / show it off. In anycase, you get the idea.... So, recently I had an idea. I know noone wants to look at me directly, but I like to look at me. I think for a defomred lady, I look pretty good. My point is I want some professional photos done. You heard me right, I want full body shots while wearing something very form fitting so I can show off my deformity. I know it sounds crazy, but I want this. I need this, for me. I want full body pictures of me "celebrating" my deformity. LIke the pregnancy photos, only show casing my "curves".
I brought this up to my husband (he is a very kind and caring man) and all he did was raise his eye brow and say "Hua". So I waited a few days and I brought it up again. That time he said,"Really? WHy?" so I told him, just as I have explain to all of you. I want to "showcase" my deformity. I want pictures celebrating my deformtiy. He said," Thats weird babe.". So what do I do? I have brought it up a dozen times in the last month, and I just cannot seem to get him to understand that I want this done for me. For the "inside me" and it is important.
What am I doing wrong? Am I going about this in the wrong way? Or should I ask in different manner? WHat do you guys think?
TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
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