Thank you for the support.
My grandmother's passing was expected, she's been in hospice for 2 years, several times saying she wasnt gonna make it through the night. But finally she said she was tierd of the pain and needed to move on. SO in a way it's good to know she isnt suffering anymore, but of course it's sad to lose anyone. Everyone that has passed before happened when I was young, where I didn't know much about
Then having a baby pass with SIDS was just horrible, I just can't accept that babies should die, feels like a piece of me is missing now. They where gonna keep doing CPR for as long as the mother wants, but she called it off after one and half hours, I didn't want them to, if it was my kid, they would still being doing it, but I guess it was the right thing to do....it was just so unexpected, and why does a healthy baby just stop breathing....We just got the tombstone in last weeks, it's really beautiful.
Thanks again, my doctor just raised my Cymbatla up, hoping to help the anxiety and depression. then he switched my Suboxone to Subutex cause they come in generics and is WAY cheaper, so that takes alot of stress away. Anything to help witht he stress is a little bit helpful. But one good thing that's come out of this, is it makes me wanna spend way more time with my kids, espeically after knowing that they can disappear in a blink of an eye, and I don't think anyone realizes this til it's happened to them.
I've been reading on a forum for people who have lost a loved one to SIDS, but it seems to be just for parents, so I havent joined yet, I dont know what they'll think, but I have so many questions to ask....
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