Well, it was a hard weekend, no doubt.....
Friday and saturday were very hard. My spine has a deep "flu" sickness feeling. Deep, under the spine. The swelling and tenderness has me constantly on the verge of loosing my lunch. So much pressure.
My hips are.... feel like they need to pop and stretch. All the time. They have a deep "tugging" sensation with the stifness and ache. My upper right thigh, right outter hip and right heel are numb for days at a time. It used to only happen when I sat or lifted my leg up for a long peroid of time and would only last as short while. Now, I wake up to numbness and it lasts days.
I have 2 new areas that have been getting the non stop "under the skin itching". Now the one on my neck has begun to feel tender and swollen. It does concern me somewhat, only because in the past an area would have the "deep under the skin itching" for about 6months before any "swelling, tenderness and pain" would begin. This time it was only a little over a month or so. It is, a pretty big concern in the back of my mind.
Looking at myself in the mirror is.. well, frightening. Everything "looks" worse than it is when I am not feeling good and slouching. But my right hip. Gosh you guys, its going so fast. GOsh so darned fast. It is very spooky because at first the muscles in my upper right thigh and middle abdomen looked "pulled and stretched" to the right. Now my muscles look completly normal except that the areas that were pulled looking are now just off center and larger muscles. Its so... freaky. WIth my hip roating so fast to the rear I am frightened. This is getting scary. I am just down right frightened to my very core. I dont know what they are going to do when they see me in a few weeks.
One small bit of good news though. My knees are still doing really good. It is down to just mild / moderate pain. My right knee, on the inside, popps alot. It isnt painful or anything. It just a constant mild... soreness. Nothing big atall.
I went down and gave blood for my parathyroid absorption, hypoparathyroidism (inherited) tests.... I havent been able to kick my caffiene habbit. I know! I should never had started again when I went to Florida. I thought that since I was able to stop last time, I would just stop again when I got back from vacation. I just can't seem to do it. I have tried an failed many times. I will try again today. But, by now, the endocrinologist will know I have fallen off the wagon. I just hope it doesnt effect my tests to badly. Gosh it is just so hard! I love ice cold soda pops, warm lemon tea, and fresh hot sugary coffee. Argh!
So, thats whats going on in my neck of the woods
TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood