Hello all of my dear family, I hope you are all having a LPD! I just wanted to stop in and say hello and tell you what a wonderful visit I had...just wish I would have felt better! Friday afternoon. my daughter got her for a visit from Colorado. It has been almost a year since I have seen her and it has been a rough year at that. When she left Nebraska, almost a year ago....she was a mess! She had just gotten out of re-hab and prior to re-hab she was in a mental hospital. She was really messed up. She was on ativan for anxiety and was abusing them and mixing them with alcohol... and the results were terrible! She would black out and be violent and physically fight with anyone around her. It was terrible. I could tell when she left for Colorado that, even though she had just gotten out of re-hab, she was not okay! She kept telling me she was and that she needed to go back to Colorado so that she could "have a life" because there was nothing for her in this small town! Which was true, but I knew she was not okay! So I worried and wondered daily! Received phone calls at 1 or 2 or 3 am with her drunk and crying about how terrible everything was! I finally had to tell her that I could not do this and I would turn my cell phone off at night. She was 21 and I could not fix herand was too far away to help her out of her jams! Then I got the call in the morning.....she had just gotten out of jail and had gone and picked up her car! Turns out.... when she picked up her car it was wrecked and she had no idea what had happened and she had been arrested for DUI! I did not know what to say. I told her that I loved her no matter what, but that mom could not fix this one! I told her I would always be here to listen and to stand behind her, but she had to take charge of her life and stand up to what she had done! Well, she has! She is working FT at King Soopers as a checker, she bought a car, pays her insurance, pays for her intoxilizer (sp) that she has to have in the car, pays all her bills, has taken her classes required already and has not even had her sentencing!
When she showed up here....I saw my baby girl again! She had life in her eyes again! Family here had a get together and everyone was drinking pretty heavy....Amber had 2 beers and that was it! Everyone kept pushing.....because of course they knew "Amber the party animal" and she said "no, I'm good. I had a couple beers and that is all I want. I hardly ever even drink anymore!" Needless to say, I was so happy! We had a very nice visit Saturday morning and just spent some precious time together before she had to go. It was so nice! The only bad part.....of course.....I felt horrible and still do! She wanted us to go to the lake and I couldn't, so she took Shannon's kids which both them and her really enjoyed! I just wish I would have felt a little better! But it could have been worse....I could have felt like I do today! She looked at me and said "Mom, I am not trying to make you feel bad, please know that....but I can tell how bad you have been since I left! You do not look good at all" Then she started crying and hugged me! So anyway......it was wonderful to see her and to see that she is OKAY, but CP had to rear it's o-so-ugly head!!
Miss and love you all! Take care everyone!
***Spinal Stenosis L3/L4, L4/L5 & L5/S1 with Nerve Impingement***Fibromyalgia***TMJ***GERD***Severe Depression***VERY Large Cyst Right Ovary causing mild twisting, Small Cysts Left Ovary & 3 Large Cysts Uteru****Possible RA***
Medications - MS-Contin, Cymbalta, Famotidine and currently Prednisone