It is good to hear from you again *hugg* Sorry for my late response, but things have been a bit hectic here to say the least. I hope that you are doing better today, it is only a day or so until your love comes home. I can tell you miss him very much when he is away.
I don't think your family is dysfunctional. Each person has a major life illness they must over come or experience It is perfectly normal. Many families loose a home for various reasons. Debt, foreclosure, fire, unable to live in the same town... You really aren't alone and you should NOT feel awkward talking about it. It is important to talk about these things as much as you can. It is important aspect of the healing process. Also, you never know when someone who is struggling through the same thing, will hear you, and look to you for help. Please, don't feel as though your feelings and needs are of no importance. They are VERY important!
I am so sorry your friends aren't there for you. I too lost many "friends" when I began getting ill.. I mostly lost them because in the beginning I was told repeatedly "tiffin up. Get over it. Stop complaining". Then when the doctors found out that things were very wrong indeed... those same people scattered like flies due to guilt. I used to feel upset, angry, like I was just a door mat all those years that I was there for my friends (even when they did terribly wrong things), yet when I needed support where were they?.. Well, think of it this way. You don't have to waste a single breath or a single moment wrapped up in Their needs, Their wants, any more. Now you can open up your life to new friends. I know it hurts, and it will hurt for a long time. The thing to remember is that this is just another step down your path in life, and there will be new friends... new chapter in life. *hugg* It just takes a long time to heal the "inside you".
Here I am chatting away! I really should get the mopping done and the stalk started for the stew. I hope you can find a few moments for yourself to relax and unwind. Please know you are in our hearts here.
TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood