Hello Monty's Mom!
I have read these post from top to bottom, and yours several times. It has bothered me all day long, as I have been looking for something to suggest to you.
Like many here, my heart goes out to you and we all want so desperately to help. Will a few simple clicks of the Keyboard help, as we type a response to you.
Of course we hope so....but are we really giving you answers that you can find some sort of hope from? There are many here with the same exact problem as yours,
and I too felt the same as you several times throughout my ordeal with my back problems. I do hear your pain, and it is ever so clear for those of us that suffer from CP.
I once heard a saying that goes like this "If we take our eyes off of the Goal, obstacles begin to appear" Please keep your eyes on the goal...no mater what it may be.
Start with small goals...and then work your way up to bigger ones. Keep your focus there as best you can...report them here no mater how small you think they are,
and we will cheer for you.
Trust me!...you are of some worth in this life, even if you are not a working a job that pays. A working mother was rare 40 to 50 years ago,
but they were valued and respected just the same. Don't cut your self worth shorter than it is.
I always say that tomorrow is a brand new day.....and sleep forgives our burdens of yesterday. As I told Pete in another post, carry the burden that you can, and let the Good Lord carry the rest.
Yes!...we may face some of the same burdens that we faced yesterday, but I can tell that you have plenty of Drive in you.
While I don't know much about
you.....and maybe some of this seems to be rambling....I want you to know that you are not alone and we do care. Maybe you have a close friend that you can talk to every day,
if not I certainly encourage you to reach out and find one. Yes ...YOU may have to reach out! I believe strongly in the buddy system, and practice it everyday.
HW is a wonderful place to vent, rant, seek advice, and make friends! No!...we can't possibly heal you, although we would love to. I always offer an
open invitation to anyone here that needs a friend, someone you know will be there,
when you need it. Feel free to email me anytime...I will always answer back.
One more thing you might want to do is start calling some of the agency's in your area that offer support or assistance to those in need. Maybe they will direct you to an employer who understands your needs. It will never hurt to try!
You may even want to think about
doing medical billing from home as well. Keep looking and keep your chin up as best you can.
Bless you in every way!
Post Edited (Screaming Eagle) : 8/29/2010 10:15:16 AM (GMT-6)